Let's spend tonight on the top of the world

TO MY LOVELY STARFISH JELLYFISH :)

2010-10-18T07:02:00.000-07:00

I know ____ very disturbing haha, have fun watching :D /MUACKS :D

Endure the rain to anticipate the rainbow

2010-09-28T03:47:00.000-07:00

I guess no one will visit this blog already, good in a way, get to pen down my thoughts, nothing but rants.

yah, I've been complaining I've lost my motivation to study since end of Term 3 and hence expecting myself to do worse than Midyears. Well, I really did prepare myself to do badly, but what's worse is I can't help but compare myself to others, when everyone is moving forward (improving so damn much), i'm running backwards.... How great right? Not able to be motivated at the very crucial moment......

But what's done is done, what's done can't be undone, what's the point of ranting right? 6 more weeks to A's, 2 more months to freedom. I know I don't want to feel the same as last year, and the only solution is to work my ass off for this very very last lap. I hope I've gotten my motivation back, and pray God will bless me with the determination, wisdom, time management to study hard & study smart. This time, not for others, but for myself, not only for myself, but to have this chance to glorify Him in my studies (since I was lucky enough to get a 2nd chance).

Yah, thank God I made awesome friends this year like my classmates (Mabel! Sheena,Glende,Michelle and many others making school life much more enjoyable), Eileen Evelyn Peiyu! whom I'm really glad to know (: & not forgetting Eugenia & Weixin! You two made my twitter life much more exciting and thank you for all the encouragement, I'm really looking forward to our long list of activities! ^^

okay not like they will read but well, for myself to read lor haha.

I will, I must uphold my promise to myself!

HOTTEST ELF!

2010-07-31T07:19:00.000-07:00

I probably already pronounced this blog dead, well it is! But I need to type this out!

[WARNING: all about Kpop, please don't read if you aren't interested in Kpop]

Tonight was 2PM first Korea Concert and they did an awesome job! I know it because I read news and saw photos regarding the concert! They really put in a lot of effort in performing and even sang a song dedicated to Hottests! I felt heart pain reading about them, about how they went through all the difficult times due to internal issues and how they have to bear unnecessary hatred from used-to-be-fans people! Nonetheless, they put up a brave front in fighting on and in believing in Hottests that we'll stand by them and they will stand by us! I'M REALLY PROUD OF YOU GUYS! WOOYOUNG JUNSU NICHKHUN JUNHO CHANGSUNG TAECYEON! (: Please continue what you believe in and we'll give you our ultimate support! ^^

I felt guilty because Super Junior was my bias too, along with them! At a point of time, I really just focus on Super Junior ): I guess both groups are my ultimate bias because I see how much they went through to be where they are standing now, how much hard work, how much tears, how much sweat they put into their performance. Even when they faced negative comments, having other people bashing them, scolding them, they still stand as 1 giving support to each other and believing in their members and their fans. I was really touched by how far they have come and how much they have overcome! I truly hope they can continue performing as a group as long as they can! (: & even if some have left, I hope their friendship doesn't die!

I know many people think I'm crazy, just another typical fangirl of kpop. But hey, if they can be one of my motivation, why not? They may just bring laughter to me through their videos, but I did learn quite a bit from their experience! I just wanna say I'm proud to be an ELF and HOTTEST, HWAITING! :3 LOVE YOU <3

Life seems difficult & bleak at the moment, you can say even worse than last year in terms to stress level and work load, but hey I'm happy with my friends in school & Kpop! ^^

2010-06-02T07:41:00.000-07:00

Aishii! I've been neglecting my blog! I'm so sorry. I guess I'll just focus on this blog and my tumblr. that's it. the rest will be deleted/ignored!!

For now, this blog will be dead too since I've nothing I want to update about (:

Who Knows; He Does.

2010-05-05T04:38:00.000-07:00

大笨蛋！I realized it is still very difficult for me to kick my habit of procrastinating D: Haven't been able to perform as well as i wanted myself to be. What's my problem? I can't help but to sleep my afternoon away, and watching loads of videos through the night! RAH, I don't want to forgo my second chance, NO! [Lord let me focus let me focus let me focus!]

Finally I'm feeling the stress, stress to do well and not only a pass! It's kickin' in! Oh not forgetting the amount of work!!! My goodness, I have extra extra extra chemistry practices, one econs assignment per week, math class test every now and then, extra extra lessons and now tuition homework toooo! If last year was busy, this year will be extra ultra super busy! I've received my homework outline Term 3 for econs: lecture + tutorial hmwk + one assignment a week + 500 words summary for each article given! [jaw dropped]

On the other hand, probably God is providing me enough work and deadlines to push me to do my work and have extra practice! :D He knows me well!!!! Alright, i will do my part tooooo! But firstly I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeed to plan my time for extra practices and consultations!!! Thank God for the awesome tutors!!!! :D YAY!

God really has His plans for me. I SEE IT NOWWW, HE KNOWS WHAT'S BEST FOR ME! If I didn't get such results, I would be still struggling to be true to myself and finding my genuine self and of course not able to humble myself down! I thought 2nd chance was already a blessing, but who knows, the awesome tutors, the awesome tuition teacher, the awesome classmates, the awesome friends, brothers and sisters - they are the ones who made me happy and support me through this journey! THANKS YOU VERY MUCH :D + MANY MANY PRAISES FOR THE AWESOME ALMIGHTY GOD! :D

[Okay, now it's my part to push myself out of comfort zone, give me strength Lord!]

Keep it Simple;

2010-05-01T09:13:00.001-07:00

That aside, I'm doing well now, apparently much much happier than before. Don't ask me why, because I don't even know myself (: Maybe I've finally humble myself down, not wanting any additional attention, just wanna live as who I am and truly count my blessings (:

Something I'm guilty of is my studies and my spiritual walk. /: God gave me an additional chance, I don't wish to waste it just like that! So I wanna do it once more for myself and this time not with my own ability but truly through Him :D & in order to do so, I need and I want and I will build up my relationship with Him, for He is the one who gave me so much grace and blessings which I don't deserve at all!

He gave me a simple brain, maybe I misused it at times - thinking too much, but yet this little brain is filled with cranky ideas of how can I make someone's day happier, how one day I can have my fairytale, just plenty of imagination while daydreaming. & by thinking of all the nonsensical impossible things, I will feel much happier because it's hope and belief that one day maybe it will happen too (:

I truly wish how I am feeling now can continue..... Simply humbling myself down and not chase those materialistic stuff. & I believe I can be happy even when I'm standing alone, without you :D

& to you Earthlings out there, I hope you are happy too! :D keep smiling!

You Filled My Quiet Nights With Mixed Emotions

2010-05-01T08:41:00.000-07:00

Hi Earthlings I'm back. I have many thoughts running through my mind, but somewhat I think I've lost my inspiration / or whatever I've typed just can't fully describe how I'm feeling! D:

Cut it short, I think I'm a drama fanatic & a silly girl who loves and believes in daydreaming in the most impossible fairytale like stories :D Every drama gives me a little warmth, love, hope and definitely drained loads of my tears! Every drama has its special meaning beneath it, something I can learn and change. Not only can it make me cry, it can make it smile at the end of the show, because it's always a happy ending! (something that is unpredictable in reality)

You must be thinking I'm weird, I don't deny. Unknowingly, Drama and Music have accompanied for many years, giving me different mixed emotions at the end of each show / song. You may think I'm too naive, but I still believe in my fairytale, that one day it'll happen.

Till then, let drama and music bring me through a series of different stories that can truly touched my heart, let me cry my lungs out, or just simply smile because it is another happy ending.

{I'm just weird, maybe I'm a little too emotionally attached to each drama I watched :D}

Plain 5 Lines.

2010-02-19T07:35:00.000-08:00

Okay, I have no life for 3 weeks already! Time to get a job and enjoy life :D
Hopefully I can be a camp facilitator :D
YAY, I'm going Japan in April :D
Time to go swimming again :D

NO! 2 more weeks to death day D:

Speaking For Me

2010-02-09T08:52:00.000-08:00

Dear __________'s blog/website (several),

I enjoy reading your blog. Thanks for the posts which actually somehow reflected how I feel sometimes and even just by reading, I am encouraged by some of the stuff you have blogged/shared.

Love,
Me.

Open Eyes, Close Eyes.

2010-02-09T07:10:00.000-08:00

Hello fellow Earthlings. I'm not sure where to start, after all many things did happen lately -shocking matters-

Firstly, I guess many of you should know I'm not working for the time being. Yes, thanks to the work scope & my carelessness that cause me to lost my job. Well, shall not rant too much about it. All I can say is even though personally, I feel that the work scope is not suitable for me (an inexperienced and only a temporary staff) but well I did my best to keep up with the pace. It is a good experience - the fact that I get to try out permanent staff's work and awesome colleagues (: I guess that's more important than losing my job / duration I stayed there.

Next up, what have I been doing? (seriously I don't really like CNY /:) I need to help do some cleaning of the house, can't really slack at home! Nevertheless, I did have my share of rest. (: Oh I managed to clear my room and it is so much neater now & I cleaned my fan toooooo, damn cooool. Also not forgetting my wardrobe! (Give myself a pat, so proud of myself!)

I have been swimming with my dear (Yong Chen). & I was burnt! ^^ Just that I don't like my swimsuit tanned line. -big sigh. On Monday, we pretend to be poly student and went to NYP for lunch! Of course we failed pretending, she was wearing pres high shirt and I was wearing NYJC shirt. The food isn't that bad and well we were sitting there watching PCK. Great time spent together!

Also, I met up with my colleagues for dinner at Changing Appetite last week! The serving is srsly toooooo big, I totally can't finish my share! Even though it was a short session, but time spent was great - talking and joking! (: I will visit the office sooooooooon!

I want to start making cards again but seriously no mood no inspiration- too lazy /: [dislike] I shall browse the net for new inspirations & hopefully start doing again! ^^

2010-01-23T08:25:00.000-08:00

Happily Ever After Is So Once Upon A Time

I do wonder whether things that people used to hold on so dearly can soon to be 'Habits' as time passes.

{Don't be silly, my dear}

2010-01-23T07:30:00.000-08:00

Hi fellow Earthlings! I'm finally back on my chair, surfing the net in the night.
I definitely miss these times whereby I lie back and just relaxed- checking out Facebook, blog hopping, reading stuff, simply lazing around. I'm quite anti-social in the sense that I'm rather lazy to go out and have lots of fun, instead I enjoy the silence of the night and just read or watch interesting stuff.

Talking about plans after A's. Probably everyone is enjoying post A's plans and working. However, I do feel empty. I have plans like picking up dance courses, meeting up with friends, knowing more about God (growing deeper, much much more), learning new stuff, but I kinda failed terribly (moreover it is already the end of January, March is so near)! All I did for the past one month was to work and work and work ):

Starting off, it was a new experience (working at Standard Chartered Bank- Admin), I was given the chance to open accounts for people, handling credit cards application forms (pasting barcode, and scanning the barcodes etc) and handling money transfer (faxes) + cheques + salary payroll (this is currently what I'm doing). I never knew it was so tough, in the sense that I had little time having someone to guide me and yet i have to carry such heavy responsibilities. Times like due to late scanning, people can't get their pay on time and customers complain late money transfer etc. I simply have to compete with time because scanning of faxes got to be quick and cheques has to be sent down at a certain time blah blah blah... Hence, I've been working till 7/8/9pm. Worse, my office is at ulu changi business park, I have to rush for shuttle bus (7pm for toa payoh or 730 for city bus). & travelling time is at least 1hour.

HOWEVER! I still enjoy my work because of awesome colleagues and manager! Thanks Candy for helping me with my faxes + cheques (she enjoys TYPING names on the cheques)in the morning even though it means she has piled up work in the afternoon. Thanks Daphne for helping call those companies for confirm payroll details and replying emails regarding faxes and saving me when i create troubles ): Thanks Helen, my manager, who helped record payroll stuff or solving problems because of my mistakes (She is indeed veyr nice, she is willing to help out with some of my work and even joke with me!) & Elaine, Shao Liang, Jasmine, Dahpne, Dennis etc who brought some much joy and also taught me alot! (: Some people do know initially I've the intention of quitting due to the location but I didn't regret staying!Cause the new office is freaking pretty + high tech + pool table + darts!

Anyway I do hope to plan my schedule (not focusing too much on my work and forget about my friends ><): so sorryyy! & I'm thinking of taking up Yoga/Pilates (how about that? & what's the difference btwn the two?)

That's about it about updates for now.

2010-01-17T06:06:00.001-08:00

/edit: will update soon.

2009-12-05T07:23:00.000-08:00

I may make my blog private, still considering. (though I don't update much)

Mixed emotion. Unwilling to face it. Refuse to take actions against it. Let it be & I'll just go crazy.

Unpleasant

2009-11-26T04:40:00.000-08:00

I'm bored at home but I'm lazy to go out too. Sighhh, bad time of the month, weather's bad!! Having headache for like past 2 days, sickening!

Things to be happy: I run around my house for nearly 1hour yesterday. (reason: sports shoes are in my dad's car) and I did 60 situps! (: but my legs and tummy are hurting now. hurhur!

I wonder if I'll be busy next week onwards.

SourSweet.

2009-11-23T07:52:00.000-08:00

Firstly, A'Levels is ending (seriously didn't expect it to past so fast, but I guess in a way it's good) Nevertheless, I'm praying hard for a miracle.

Secondly, I've changed my blogskin, am loving it: makes me wanna blog (though I really lost my inspiration)

Thirdly, I'm amazed by the things I've blogged over the 2 years (: It's not really a consistent update about my life, but it's the bits and pieces of how I felt, & I guess it feels rather good to re-read them (:

I always like these times when I can just stone and let my thoughts run, thinking about anything under the sun / stars. About family, about results, about friends, about myself.

Like how to overcome this Fear, the fear of Love.
Reliance & Trust were what I'm afriad of. After all, I've always been trying to convince myself - No single person belongs to you and only you, and no, I can never understand what everyone or anyone is thinking. That's when wall starts building up because I'm afraid of disappointment... and the list goes on.
The feeling of loneliness is very real and at times threatening.
That's the World we live in.
{Just some of my Thoughts}

Let those flashbacks keep playing, I need to rewind and reminisce;
Let the time freeze for just a little while more, I need few more moments before my thoughts are cleared;
Let the rain touch my face, to freshen up my senses, to brighten up my eyes;
Let me close my eyes and feel the stars above;
Just let me wander off into my fantasy,
& I promise to return by sun rise.

[Mood:lazy]

2009-09-25T06:28:00.000-07:00

GAMBATTE

2009-09-25T05:43:00.000-07:00

I'm left with one more physics paper 1 on Monday and I'm done with Prelims. Seriously, I still can't believe Prelims is ending already.

Looking back, I guess this is the biggest hurdle ever, till this very day of my life. I've used up so much energy, time, effort, determination, tears to adapt to the change in JC and for every single major exam I have to go through, I really wonder if I've sufficient energy and determination to pull through A's, confidence to do all the papers, and time to get myself feel prepared. It's not only putting my discipline, physical abilities, emotional struggle on a test, but also spiritually. Probably, this is the very first time I felt defeated, and I really need God for the strength I have within me is drying up.

Because after taking most of the papers, I am feeling even worse now. Maybe to many people, it is definitely better than the past, but to me, I felt that it's not my best and it may be even worse. I really don't know how long can I hang on.... The thought of U-turning back is really scary, and the thought that I took A's but did so horribly is even worse!

I always cheered myself by looking back at sec 2 when I really studied and memorized (like everyday) my hatest subject - Geography just to make sure I can overcome this subject. And I did it! Look back at Promos last year, I was so scared and worried I can't be promoted and thus I make myself study in school from 730am to evening. And I did it! Now, it's not whether I can do it, but I must do it! But how about this time?

I'm always constantly asking myself : Do I work better under immense stress?

I don't want to be beaten down, but I'm not strong enough.

2009-08-20T03:49:00.000-07:00

OMG! I'm home early today, and sadly to annouce, I slept for 3 hours :O But I definitely feel recharged now (: Lots of work to complete later!! JIA YOU (: Aim to sleep by 1am!!
Oh yesterday I had a full mock Math paper and well as usual, didn't have time to revise!! Straight after the 3 hour Paper 1, I rushed off to tuition for another 3 hour Paper 2!!! And I didn't even have time to eat first /: Luckily, I managed to survied (: Afterwhich, I went to YCK MRT to wait for my dad to fetch me and guess what happened?

A guy walked past me (I was at the bus stop sitting on the bench), then just stood there, nothing weird but then he poked me said, 'what time is it now?' And I just replied, never did I expect him to pop out a question,'Can we make friends?' It kind of shocked me! He tried to persuade me but to no avail, I shoo-ed him off by saying, 'My dad is coming to fetch me.'

OMG?! seriously didn't know what to do lah. zzzzz.

Okay back to stoning for awhile, and prepare to do work.

tmr's 3 hour of Economics Tuition : O (Hope I survive)

2009-08-13T03:33:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't been updating and it is super dead. Here I am doing some updating of the past week (an exciting one!) (:

07.08
It was NYJC's National Day celebration through games carnival, which I guess not very fun. :P then JJXY headed to Plaza Sing to watch Harry Potter & The Half Blood Prince. The queue was surprisingly LOOOOOONG, luckily there's this group of girls who willingly help us buy tickets! The movie was alright to me, I'm smart (I didn't read, lol).
Then straight after, I went home, since JJX have other plans. Never did I suspect they were planning to get present for me, OMG THANKS GIRLS! That's about it.

08.08
It was my cousin's R.O.M @ some hotel @ Sentosa. Quite interesting and the bride is beautiful. Finally had the chance to meet up with my cousins after eons of years! Afterwhich we had lunch buffet which was YUMMMMY! Then I went off with my cousins to get PURPLE sneakers as the one I preferred didn't have my size /: After buying, I rushed down to church for the musical concert! I tell you, it's super embarrassing /: because I'm in my prom dress and heels, way too formal!!! Finally at 930pm, head for supper and home to sleeeeep.

09.08
I WAS EARLY FOR SERVICE! (:
Fellowship was awesome. Though it's just worshipping and praying in the dark, but it is really thought provoking, made me think back about the 1 year I've struggled. Times when I fight with my own weakness, fight with temptations, more importantly fighting with my inner self. Definitely, this has become a cycle of confusion. At the end of the session when we were asked about our feelings, I suddenly felt my heart beating so fast and by the time I looked at charlotte, she nodded her head and I just couldn't control myself but cry it out. I've always asked God when and how am I supposed to feel His presence within and I finally felt it, (: Thank you O'Lord.
Then we had out cha xu and birthday celebration! The cake is really cute - Singapore Flag! (:
Then headed home to slack xD Oh, I said my pledge to the comp at 822!!

10.08
Had tuition in the morning.
Headed down to Plaza Sing to shop for card materials for Bernice's card, took me about an hour! & the worst thing is left my hmwk in church!!! Thanks to Ce Ren, I managed to get it back! Thus the whole afternoon was spent studying with Clement, QF, Tim and Rachel. (:

12.08
Freaking tired because I did the card till 2am!! But I know it's all worth it! at 6pm after Review of Chemistry Paper, I rushed off to the heartland mall at Kovan to get flower for Bernice before meeting up with Clement and Tim to surprise her!
When we reached, Ben was at the door and his parents were preparing LOTS OF YUMMY FOOD! 3 of us waited for Bernice to finish bathing. We stood outside walking about, feeling so nervous (Clement having a very nasty idea of ..... HAHA) and when she finally walked out, we surprised her! (: We ate and talked and camwhore and cut cake till about 9plus!!! It's really awesome!! Great Gathering (:

13.08
It's my birthday! at 12am, just after I log out from MSN, I recieved a call from Louis and guess what he did, he sang birthday song! HAHAHAHA, it's funny but I'm really surprised and THANK YOU SO MUCH (: very sweet of you. When I reached school, Yannie and friends sang birthday song when the canteen was filled with people, seriously damn malu lah! When I was in class waiting for GP lesson to start, JJX suddenly came in with a mini cake and 5 balloons and a kiddy bag! I WAS O.M.G SHOCKED xD You can imagine : A girl with 5 red balloons, a red and yellow kiddy bag with presents, SUPER MACDONALD'S! But it was really fun (:
OH Mr Quek wrote a note for me too, thanks to the very sweet girls, taking the effort and time out to make this day so special for me! <3

Durng Chem Prac, Chong Xin came to school to pass me my present, thank you so much for coming, though I had to rushed off for lessons /: After school, JJXY CAMWHORED!!! (: Just when I thought it's gonna be super tough to carry all the stuff home myself, CLEMENT SURPRISED ME BY APPEARING INFRONT OF ME IN THE TRAIN. I was literally stunned, and he was nice to help me carry till YCK Mrt Station (:

At night, my parents and I went to this japanese restaurant to eat before heading home to study, LOL.

Lastly, a big thank you to:
Coco, Bernice, Xia Jun, Pei Ling, Charlotte Chen, Jun Jie, Kun Ming, Guang Wen, Chong Xin, Louis, Iris, Ren Yi, Eugene Peter, Wan Yi, Matthew, Eliza, Yan Jie, Glenn, Alvin, Clement, Stenphel, Michelle, Bing Xun, Diyanah, Bernice, Jackie, Rachel, Daniel, You Yu, Por Shin, Sut Sia, Nicole, Ying Chen, Chun Fui, Ming Sze, Steven, Hui Quan, Hannah, Zheng Hui

Jolene, Janice, Xin Ying, MR QUEK, Jia Rong, Alvin, Hui Yi, Sze Ting, Chong Xin, Timothy, Qing Feng, Clement, Mom, ah ma

Faithfulness Fellowship, Benjamin Lee, Benjamin Ho, Charlotte See, Kyrie, Pearl, Angela & everyone!!!

Sorry if it's very summarized, I need to do work now ): & pictures will be up soon (:

2009-07-26T06:06:00.000-07:00

okay, still having fever :/ means no school for me tmr! BUT! if I'm still down with fever tmr, I need to go hospital for check up, NOOOOOO ): I need to finish my work!!!

Geeez it feels horrible wasting my weekends sleeping! /:

SAVE ME!

2009-07-26T00:21:00.000-07:00

I've ignored my blog for nearly a month! Well, guess life has become so mundane, there is seriously nothing to update.

And at such great timing, I'm down with fever, cough, flu and headache! Even though the doctor gave me MC on monday (which is tmr), I doubt my mom wants me to stay at home which means I'm so dead since this weekend I did nothing but sleeeeeeeeep!

SIGHHHH! Worse still, I've got plenty of tests this week too, awesome isn't it? I can go bang my head alrdy lah!

HOW?!!!!

2009-06-12T06:09:00.000-07:00

I can ~~proudly~~ say I'm so dead, I'm so unproductive, I've done nothing much.
Sigh!

But, I did enjoy myself: being able to take time out to play beach volleyball, play tennis + basketball, and learning squash! (: Ah, hopefully sunday I'm be able to kayak! AWESOMENESS (:

APPPPLES! KIM BUM! F4, BOYS OVER FLOWERS! KOREAN + JAPANESE SONGS !YOGHURT! : reasons to be happy! (:

okay, back to worrying about my studying /:

2009-05-31T05:20:00.000-07:00

There's so many things I wanted to update, but since my internet was down for quite afew days. I forgot what I wanna post already and I've no motivation to do so either. (:

Boys Over Flowers is awesome (: Both Korean & Japanese, urrr and Taiwan Season 1.

I'm tired now /:
Busy Holiday Here I Come..

2009-05-29T22:44:00.001-07:00

Am I losing things I used to hold on dearly?

Keep Drivin'

2009-05-13T08:02:00.000-07:00

Today was rather interesting!
I managed to sleep till 650am before heading to school! I had my 7 hours of sleeep!
I was so nervous before assembly, and before I realised, I've said finish my announcement on stage. It's really awesome, and fun. Yes I'm easily amused by new experiences. Oh sorry Terence for hearing me practicing over and over again and having to bear with my nonsense just because I'm nervous.
Had only 3 lessons for the day.
Prepared for the official launching of the school's Fruit & Herb Garden!
It's really fun trying to promote the drinks (we made it!!!), going around the school and staff room to give small souvenirs (it's shocking how enthusiastic some teachers are)! It's a great experience (:

Oh no, I realised I've too many things, I can't complete them by tomorrow. /:

Am I not convinced? For many things I'm so ignorant, to believe what I want to believe and not what reality is.

I'm Trying

2009-05-12T07:15:00.000-07:00

I think I over strained my back AGAIN. It's hurting so badly today. Worse still, headache got to hit me the whole of today and stomach isn't cooperating either. Losing my appetite, unable to finish my food, feeling abnormally bloated, and also wanting to puke. Geez, it's always like that when I'm feeling down / stressed / just not right. Sigh.

Oh something amusing, I was complaining to Janice about the terrible horrible vegetable headache, and I said, ' I think it is the bangs, I need to cut it off!' She added on, 'too heavy uh?' or 'it bangs my head.' Geez I can't remember which, but well I thought it's funny (: Oh I really trimmed my fringe! HAHA (:

I have been thinking much these few days & wondered a lot. I mean there're endless things to think, to imagine, to consider, to explore, but I think the best thing was the time spend with myself, listening to the music and just wander around in my own imagination, it's quite sweet (:
I may not be able to come up with any conclusion, but definitely I managed to clear some doubts with myself, & simply find reasons for me to smile.

There's no reason to hate someone, but there's a reason to love & appreciate the person more, because if it's not for each person who entered into my life, I won't be who I am today. Right? (: Something I hope I can learn.

I should put aside 'I' and think more for 'others'.
I know what a big difference from the previous previous post, but I can't always wish for things to go my way. & being sad here won't change anything because who really can understand the struggles I am having with myself, who can really see how hard I'm fighting with my own feelings?

You can say that I'm just trying to convince/decieve myself. I may not succeed but at least I tried (:

2009-05-11T05:17:00.000-07:00

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

Q1)What do you think about yourself?

Save Me by Stacie Orrico [does that mean I'm insane or something?]

Q2)Will you get married?

Are You Happy Now by Mitchelle Branch [Sounds like I'm unwilling, hah]

Q3)How will you die?

Knocking On heaven's Door by Avril Lavigne [That will be quite awesome]

Q4)Anyone have a crush on you?

Straitjacket Feeling by All American Rejects [based on lyrics, the person gave up? lol.]

Q5)Favorite Things to do

Butterfly Kiss by Westlife [Don't mind, but not when they appear in my stomach]

Q6)Love your friends?

Hero by Mariah Carey [Well, treat them like heroes]

Q7)Why are you doing this quiz?

Kids Of The Future by Jonas Brothers [To be kids of future? maybe staying young forever?]

Q8)Any idea what's going to happen tomorrow?

She's No You by Jesse McCartney [That I remain unique as ever]

Q9)Where you wanna go tomorrow?

One Man Show by Jonas Brothers [urm, not really. Am I that brave?]

Q10)If your friend say he/she love you,what will be your reaction?

The Extra Mile by Laura Pausini [depends on the person what, lol.]

Q11)If your friend say he/she hate you,what will be your reaction?

Who Knows by Avril Lavigne [oops, anything can happen (:]

Q12)What is the funniest thing you had heard or experience in your life?

Miss Independent by Kelly Clarkson [not very funny]

Q13)Do you have a crush on someone?

I'll Be There For You by Bon Jovi [urrrr, if i have, i'll be there for the person.]

Q14)Are you metally disorder?

Shooting Star by Boyzone [well, i guess maybe alittle, since the answer doesn't even answer question]

Q15)How smart are you?

Stuck by Stacie Orrico [not very I guess]

2009-05-11T05:07:00.000-07:00

On a side note, my back is aching terribly /:
Sigh. Shall attempt Complex.

Leave Out All the Rest

2009-05-11T04:07:00.000-07:00

& I thought I have something that could make me smile.
& I thought it was really sweet.
& I thought I can take it.
& I didn't know all were just my wishful thinking.

When I read what was typed to me, I was speechless, unbelievable yet I was expecting it to come. What irony I know. I behaved like a little kid, trying so hard to deceive myself, trying so hard to run away from the fact that it's gone & it's over.

In the night, when everyone is asleep & the light was switched off, I listened to ipod & stared at the computer blankly till I got tired and fell asleep. Early in the morning, I woke up and started pondering all over again, it was 530am & my mind wasn't even clear. By 7am, I fell back into my dreams and by 840am, I woke up (yes so unusual of me). I started doing stuff, bit by bit, hoping to complete at least some of my work.

I believed I did it, maybe to people it is indeed unproductive, but to me I'm satisfied. (:

If I've a choice, would I still want to know about it, or would I choose not to know? I've no idea.
If you ask me whether I'm still sad, whether I'm still affected, whether I could pick myself up and move on? I'm still sad, I'm still affected but this time I believe I'll be different.

As the cold water runs down my face, I hope it washes away my feelings and those struggles within me.
As the sun shines on me, I wish it brings me back to life, bringing me the hope I needed so badly.
As I lie on my bed and listen to the songs, I can imagine happily-ever-after that could happen only in dreams.

It doesn't matter, does it?

2009-05-10T06:31:00.000-07:00

Why does it always have to hit me so hard?

Oh no.

Sigh.

2009-05-09T05:32:00.000-07:00

I need some sleep (although I had plenty of it already).
Geez, I did nothing much except
-Packing my room
-Attempt Poisson Distribution (gonna ask Joel for help tomorrow)
-Read a little on Economics

The End. Sigh how pathetic!

No doubt in You

2009-05-06T07:44:00.000-07:00

Getting Thirstier.

Not a very productive week, but I guess that's not the point of the week.
The only thing is I can't wait for weekends.
Something I'm looking forward to (:
After a talk with Charlotte and Jia Ling on Sunday, I've seen the picture clearer, time for some actions.

Looking into You for direction & purpose.

(: (: (: (: joyful feeling! Crazy needs to buck up, focus!

[currently: nothing to update, on hiatus]

2009-05-02T06:15:00.000-07:00

BAD DAY BAD DAY BAD DAY!!

sigh! /: can't get myself studying again. Blame it on the weather, lol.
oh wells, Crazy will try in th later part of the night.

Gosh!

2009-04-30T23:50:00.000-07:00

[/edit]
Holiday is an excuse to slack.
Am having fun browsing the web.

; Slacking since yesterday & can't stop sneezing & I'm having bad headache.
Feeling really awful now! /:

Out of Blue

2009-04-24T07:22:00.000-07:00

Spend Quality Time with someone special to you. Eat ice cream together sing songs play cards. Talk deep, get to know what is happening with him/her. Listen well not only to his / her words but to what is unsaid.

Today was Buddy day spend @ Aston and Ben & Jerry's! Awesome food awesome people (the 2 of us) great time spent together! Though good times are always short, but it's fulfilling, just plain talking and eating, a day off from studies and alittle time spent to pamper ourselves (:

Praise someone. Sometimes you can't think of anything good about a certain person. The more that person needs to be praised, and also encouraged. Think hard, be honest and sincere & then give your praise. See what happens.

Though it's not easy, but I still thought hard of who to be praised and encouraged. I do hope you can feel my encouragement sent to you ><

So if one day you recieve something 'random' from me, it's just me trying to make little surprises, hoping to bring joy to you (:

Blessings over Sadness

2009-04-23T07:31:00.000-07:00

Make a list of Ten, 10 blessings you got today.

1. Louis helping me to photocopy my Chemistry Experiment 2
2. PE was unexpectedly fun!
3. I ate yummy food, lol.
4. I survived a long day without falling asleep
5. I had someone, Yu Hua, to go home with!
6. A call from Louis, because I had nightmare, again (had another just 2 days ago!)
7. I watched TV today
8. I'm healthy
9. I had sweet replies from yesterday message
10. I quite like studying now (:

11. Tmr's friday!!

'Having an attitude of gratitude is one of the best ways to shoo a bad day away. It reminds us to keep our eyes ever open to the many gifts God continually gives to us!'

2009-04-22T07:44:00.000-07:00

It's consciously in my mind that days & months ahead won't be easy, yet again the anticipation of the result from all the hard work I will be putting in is keeping me moving. Definitely, it is because I started off the year believing it will be an exciting year whereby I will grow spiritually, because it is He who strengthens me, guides me, teaches me, and helps me (: & so, I can't be beaten down, because He will lead me through darkness.

The day didn't start off well, it's the time of the month. Anyway, just as I was reading Physics, I looked at this present given to me last year : Have a wonderful life. & I decided to pick a card out and it says: say I love you in whatever way you can. And I did! It got me thinking, making people happy can make me happy too, and that's how love spreads! (: Doing something different, or to some of you random, can bring about surprises to people and myself. Sweet.

“ Happiness is not something you get but something you do. ”
— Marcelene Cox

“ Life is the first gift, love is the second, and understanding the third ”
— Marge Piercy

Need to have more faith, more love! (: Happy day everyone!

Negatives to Develop

2009-04-21T05:51:00.000-07:00

It's a fight against myself. Inferiority and insecurity have crashed me down. It's really depressing how I have to convince myself every now and then that I can and I have to do it. It seems like I'm on track, but no. The more practices I have, I more strength I need to convince myself that practice more and I will get it, and soon I won't need help so frequently.

Am I encouraging myself or am I in self denial? I really hope those negative feelings will become source of encouragement and soon, I'll be smiling and giving myself a pat, telling myself 'Good Job!'

Keep the spirit up and continue the fight!

Stop turning in Circles

2009-04-19T03:55:00.000-07:00

No more excuses to slack;
Time to pull up my sleeves and socks;
Time to take out those books called ten year series or twenty;
Close my eyes, feel the notes;
Pick up my pen and start writing,
Till the night says goodbye.

I never had the right feeling;

Contented yet Disappointed?

2009-04-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

Dance SYF has officially come to an end.
Relief + sad that there isn't dance practices alrdy + a tinge of disappointment.
I'm caught in between the worst (COP) and the best (GWH). So should I be contented or disappointed?

I came to school feeling excited and nervous, hoping for the very best. We had long hours of doing up our hair, putting make up (it was more like art lesson), and finally heading to UCC. At first when we had last practice before we left the school, I was rather worried because we had last minute changes and were still rather uncertain. Seriously, it's the first time I am worried and feeling so insecure.

When we reached UCC, I felt embarrassed because seeing other school's costumes, I will go 'woah, how I wish...' Adding on, hearing stranger saying 'wah superman, batman!' It kinda crashed my confidence. Seeing other school dancers' doing stretching and stuff made me so nervous and inferior actually. The awaiting was torture. Then again, I was glad I requested Hannah and Crystal to pray together, it was awesome!

Finally, after months of practicing and polishing of steps, it's our big day and our time to shine as one team. Though there are still flaws but the feeling of dancing together with them is indescribable! Definitely an enjoyment! It was a short sweet 6min 30sec! When they announced, 'Nanyang Junior College- Silver.' It was silent. I was disappointed. I was trying so hard to be contented, but it's a struggle ):

Carrying higher hopes ends with greater fall.

I felt that we deserve better but after all it's still a Silver, what can I do? Sigh. The journey wasn't smooth nor easy, we faced many struggles but we still managed to overcome as one. Guess that's the different experience, it's no longer revolving only dancing and the rest is settled and well planned by the teachers. I see the dance team grow as one, strongly bonded and really how we support one another, it's something different. The time when I didn't want to join dance yet I ended up in dance. Times when I'm hesitant to be in SYF and yet I still decide to carry on. Times when I feel hopeless and there're people who will be there to give me a push. Times when we gather around just to talk and laugh and not forgetting playing Bridge! Thinking back, I will definitely miss dancing with this group of people. <3

Thank you Ming Sze and Matthew for the roses. Thank you Buddy, Janice, Xinying, Wei Sheng, Pei, Mervis, Renyi, Alvin, Louis, Guang Wen, Charlotte for the messages! Thanks Charlotte for calling (: Love <3

Also, congrats Stnicks for achieving a Gold with Honour for Modern Dance! (:

Tonight, the sky was filled with stars, & that made me alittle happier. (:

2009-04-15T06:37:00.000-07:00

The week has been revolving dance and more dance.

Monday: Dance till 7plus
Tuesday: Get High Session, Dance till 930
Wednesday: Dance till 5plus
Thursday: SYF @ UCC = missing lessons

How about work? It is neglected and thrown aside for the time being.

Feelings: Shagged, tired, in a daze, no voice, muscle ache, sleeping as early as I can. I am as good as a zombie now!

[Life-less & Crazy is feeling lazy]

Can I stop.

2009-04-10T06:21:00.000-07:00

Breathing has become a chore.

Am procrastinating again. Where's the hunger for tutorials and notes?

Breathe In, Breathe Out

2009-04-10T03:42:00.000-07:00

I survived another dance practice today. I was feeling so tempted to sit aside and rest :/ The flu seemed to have worsened and I'm breathing harder (or am I too conscious about it?). I was super distracted during the service, sigh. All I wanted to do at the moment is rest and sleeep ):
Geez, I hate being in a daze or simply like a dead walking zombie.

On the other hand, yes I got my A for PW! yay.

Sigh sigh sigh, what a moody day. The thought of more things taking place next week is making me nervous, stressed, and just want to bang my head ):

Crazy is not so crazy lately.

Bored from Complex

2009-04-07T07:39:00.001-07:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Losing Someone
Being Alone
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

True or not? (:

2009-04-06T06:32:00.000-07:00

After the horrible Friday's parents' meeting, Saturday was a pure dead day where I slack, do work, drink water, having the feeling that I'm going to be sick.

Sunday was relatively fun except that I feel sick - throat felt itchy and dry, blocked nose, hoarse voice (?). And amazingly, there're people counting how many glasses of water I drank, the answer is 3 glasses!! LOL. Sunday's combined fellowship and 2nd service's activity was awesome - Cooking Competition. Great job everyone. As I thought everything is going as planned, I realised I forgot to bring my belt for dance and my dad can't fetch me : O I rushed home, change, tie hair, rush down (by bus) and I make it in time! That's because we don't need to have make up on, phew. Dance rehearsal was as tiring as it can be ): And I reached home at 1030pm, backache and flu are haunting me! I practically didn't sleep the whole night!!!!

Monday, feeling really tired and sick, I'm literally losing my voice now ): So people, don't blame me if i can't reply you! Sorry! Oh then, I was so tired I forgot to bring Econs book ): - skipped lecture. Afterwhich, Buddy's mom and friend brought us (JJXY) to JUMBO! awesome seafooood : O Oh not forgetting Frolicks for dessert. THANKS ALOT BUDDDDDY, though I didn't say, but I felt loved during the lunch! <3

Hope I don't die for trainings. JIA YOU CRAZY! :D

Broken

2009-04-04T02:20:00.000-07:00

Parents Meeting wasn't any form of encouragement, instead it's words of distrust that pierced through my heart. No, improvement is just bullshit if it's not up to your standard. Did you know how I felt at that moment? -Heartbroken, you didn't care how hurting it was. All I could do is to keep quiet and keep fidgeting to prevent my tears from flowing. Guess even my tutor was shocked when she asked if I've anything to say (just to defend for myself), and my reply was, 'No.' This was how discouraged I am.

Just finish posting at the GP blog. Time to do other stuff.

P.S. Giving my ears a break - peace.
P.P.S. work : not productive.
P.P.P.S. I'm falling sick.

I'm falling apart. I'm barely breathing. With a broken heart. That's still beating.

2009-04-01T21:58:00.000-07:00

yes, I'm still alive (: am at computer lab now reading GP blog. Haha.

Oh I got Gold for NAPFA! miraculously. Thank God, since I haven't been training for like weeks? So conclusion for NAPFA, all Gold and 1 silver (due to a stupid D).

Then on Monday, Buddy and I went Plaza Sing to buy present and have Ajisen (: Guess what?! We saw Jackie Chan and Daniel Wu. omgzxzxz (: On the other hand, I embarrassed myself for remembering Jia Rong's bday wrongly. Sorry, but hope you liek the chocolates (:

Damn, got back Result Slip, got to show my parents tonight, gonna get another round of scolding D: Haix. There're so many things to show them tonight, sianzxz.

Another thing: SYF in 2 weeks time ): Intense training + stress. *uncertainty too.

I can't wait for weekends!!!!!! BUT, there's Dance rehearsal @ UCC on sunday, 8pm-10pm. Can go bang my head.

Oh no, suddenly I feel so packed with stuff again (it's the feeling....)

2009-03-21T08:37:00.000-07:00

And I thought my 'K' button was spoilt, then it was my ',' button then it shifted to my 'L'.
How weird uh? Well mystery solved: A staple fell into the keyboard which caused all the problems. (:

Another wasted day slacking ):

Emotion: zzzzz, sianzxzx ttm.

Keep Me Awake, Please

2009-03-20T08:17:00.000-07:00

I realised I don't update much, and nearly never in details.

Anyway, so 'how's holiday' comes into my mind when the week is coming to an end. All I could remember is life-less. That sums up how boring I can be (: Well Tuesday had Math combined lecture with 2 other classes, Wednesday had dance, Friday had Economics Lecture-tutorial and Tuition at night. And the rest of the time? SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEP, gosh!

Well, Friday's more interesting I should say. Had Movie 'Hotel For Dogs' with Buddy and Janice. Afterwhich, Me and Janice studied @ basement of The Cathay (StarBucks was fully-occupied) while Buddy went for hair cut + treatment. Well, I think the movie is relatively funny, and damn, Bruce is such a genius in building stuff! I felt that this is the promote-anti-animal-abuse-kinda-season or love-your-pet-season? Anyway, I seriously can't deny this - THE DOGS ARE SO ADORABLE! (: Oh, then Me and Janice were curious, or at least attracted by the colourful stationaries in the 'bookshop' at the basement. Guess what, present your phone to show you're a StarHub-er and get 20% off normal items except magazines : O However, the end of the story is, I'M BROKE!

Saturday's plan : Giving Chinese Tuition @ 1030am (Don't laugh), then do work? Mundane ttm.

A Loud Whisper-Reminder.

2009-03-16T02:07:00.000-07:00

An unproductive-restless-know-i'm-in-deep-shit-but-still-not-gonna-do-anything day.

Woah. Chill. Move on.

The Movie: A Walk To Remember

2009-03-16T01:45:00.000-07:00

It's amazing how Love can change someone.
It's more amazing how God's Love can change me, as time goes by.

'Love is like the wind. You cannot see it but you can always feel it.'
That is the most beautiful relationship.

'Take a risk. Dare to move. Love is a leap of faith.'
That's where strength is being drawn.

'There's more to attraction than meets the eye.'
And that is why LOVE exists.

1Cor 13:4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;

1Cor 13:7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

She, (It)

2009-03-09T07:13:00.000-07:00

The times I was crazy just by looking at her photo is fading.

I really miss Belle.

Eye Candy

2009-03-09T07:10:00.000-07:00

It's Kinder Bueno.
Short, but sweet enough.

(: When again?

Are you the Exception, or the Rule?

2009-02-26T22:20:00.000-08:00

Yes, I'm still such a slacker. I slept till 1pm yesterday and today (: & the best part is I did nothing close to mugging! But hey, I do deserve to have some rest from the packed Block Tests schedule. It's 2 subject per day, with one sitting for each subject! That explains why I end on Wednesday.

Monday: GP, Physics

Tuesday: Mathematics, Economics

Wednesday: Chemistry

It was a total nightmare on Tuesday, it did feel horrible not able to write alot for Economics paper and people around me are using more than 10 pieces of paper. Geez. Well once again, not expecting much from it lah. Next up : Mid Years, time for a change.

Apart from all the sad story, Wednesday was such a beautiful day! Besides it's the last paper, JJXY had a great 2 hours of Bridge and a game of Daidi! It has been so long since I play Bridge, the feeling is so great (: Side track alittle, we bought a deck of cards just to play (: Well, we had to play from 12 to 2 plus because I've to wait for the Newsweek people to come before I could pay them the money for the class order.

After which, we headed down to Plaza Sing to catch a movie! The sun was blazing hot! We could feel the heat even when we were in the shelter ): & the very next moment, the sky turned dark, geeez weird weather. Guess what, I only knew what we were watching when we went into the theatre! : O As always, I'm so blur? Well we watched He's just not that into you! Well, I didn't expect much from it since I thought it was just another chick flick, but hey it was really an awesome movie (: It speaks of different stories each indivitual will face in their search of true love. This movie doesn't present you with the cliche fairy-tale-like-story, but instead a different perspectives each person may have and situations each person may face. & I don't mind watching it again! Oh did I mention that the audience was awesome too? Not being evil, but seriously there's this particular guy who laughed uniquely, and yes most of the time I was laughing at him xD We, the audience, was spontaneous! We made different sound effects ourselves and at the end of the movie, someone even clapped! Cool or what?

Girls are taught alot of stuffs growing up.

If a guy punches you, he likes you.

Never try to turn your own back,

And someday, you’ll meet a wonderful guy.

And get your very own happy ending.

Every movie we see, every story we’re told, implores us to wait for it.

The unexpected declaration of love,

The exception to the rule.

That sometimes, we’re so focused on finding our happy ending,

We don’t learn how to read the signs.

How to tell the ones who want us, from the ones who don’t,

The ones who’ll stay, from the ones who’ll leave.

And maybe the happy ending doesn’t include the wonderful guy.

Maybe its, you.

On your own.

Picking up the pieces and starting over.

Freeing yourself up for something better in the future.

Maybe the happy ending is just, moving on.

Or maybe the happy ending is worth,

Knowing that through all the other phone calls and broken hearts,

Through all of the wonders and misread signals,

Through all the pain and embaressment,

You never, ever, gave up hope.

From the movie, ‘He’s just not that into you’

Then I headed home for dinner. On my way home on the train, guess what I saw! A FULL HUGE RAINBOW! It's really awesome and amazing and magnificent and everything beautiful (: The funny thing is I kept bending down in the train to get the full view of the rainbow (I was standing) and being the typical Singaporeans, everyone was curious and was figuring out what I saw, an UFO? Haha.

It reminds me of a verse Genesis 9: 16

Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.

At night, I was on the phone with Louis and it was great. The stunning thing is even though he isn't a believer, but he finish reading the bible (thinking it was a story book) at a tender age of 9! & he still can give me some verses which he can illustrate the story to me. Really, it was very encouraging and a wake up call for me. (: Anyway do take care and recover soon!

Yes I realised, even though the past 2 weeks weren't very pleasant, but as long as I can make the step to walk over the obstacle, it'll be another start of a great beginning for me. Now I truly understand the sermons in January (:

从苦难到荣耀之路

I haven't been very efficient and disciplined in the plans I have for myself. So I do hope I can really work on that and not wait till the very last minute when it's too late! Got to work hard work hard work hard!

What more can I give?

Not even a little close to________.

2009-02-22T03:34:00.000-08:00

Block tests starts tmr and I'm not at all prepared! Is it another round of Mid years?
Seriously, I'm kinda sick of this kinda feeling, having the thought of all failing is so depressing yet so real.

Man, it's affecting every aspect of me. Screw-ed/i-n-g.
And I thought one week of depressing / down moments are over.
Actually it was - I hope, not I thought.

I'm still standing right here, I'm not moving, and that's not right! ):
Change Change Change! start planning PROPERLY!

Crazy needs to settle down fast and make proper plans and more importantly is to stick with it!
Plans should not be subjected to change unnecessarily!

P.S Sometimes I said something not meant for the situation happening at that moment, but for some other issues. I'm too tired to explain. I'll just accept.

When it's still all worth while

2009-02-20T05:20:00.001-08:00

Where should I start? Well I had Orientation last week and I tell you it was better than I expected! My OG group was fantastic! MARTY 4, 0916, YOU GUYS ARE THE BOMB! Great effort and thanks for making it such a memorable experience (:

Valentine's Day was alright I guess, received flowers from Buddy, Monster #1, Singing, Chipmunk, Yannie, Guys of 0823 (awh-so-sweet) and presents from Mar Mar, See Hiang, classmates! Thanks everyone (: Didn't join Buddy they all for movie cause I was too exhausted from Orientation ): Instead I went to get materials and back home to rest! Sadly my mom pulled me out of bed to go for the University Talk (which was just alright lor). It was then Dinner@915pm (:

This week was not very fantastic, had weird combination of feelings. I felt really stressed, down and just this unexplainable mixed feeling which made me feel suffocated ): Oh there's the Mortal and Angel Game which went well, without an end though, Mortal, you still owe me a present, you know!! lol. Well, I don't know lah, very stressed, very sleepy, very irritated, very down, very disturbed, very... I'm not sure myself. I felt nothing when running 8 rounds, I just felt empty.
Good Luck for Block Test, Crazy.

'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

Just remember, in the winter,
Far beneath, the bitter snow,
Lies a seed, that with the suns love,
In the spring, becomes a rose

I wish I could fully understand how to become a rose in the spring.

I don't know how real is this feeling, it's disturbing.

I give up playing hide-and-seek. Take it back, & I'll run away, not hiding anymore.
Keep it as long as you want, because I know everyone and everything have moved on, and I've given up waiting for a frank answer.

2009-01-31T04:32:00.000-08:00

Nothing is completed today.
A step forward to kick procrastination away.
Go girl, you can do it independently now, because you've grown up.

Time doesn't necessarily heal wounds,
but time will reveal those who are worth my love, my time,
& time will enlighten me of my foolishness,
& only time will reveal a reason.

2009-01-29T04:44:00.000-08:00

Just let me be crazy one more time.

This day marks the end of one chapter, that is to be forgotten.

2009-01-26T05:36:00.000-08:00

Week A timetable is insane! Anyway Nanyang's CNY celebration was.... unique? Pugilistic Society had a performance and then was Rangoli Class Competition! And that's it. Next was rushing off to St Nicks' with Ying Chen, though only managed to see Ms Prabs (ever so sarcastic), but it was heartwarming just to be walking around the school, shouting across buildings, eating loads of foooooooooooood! It was love <3

The next 2 days were packing packing packing! Tiring.

Today was fine, better than expected. I wasn't stoning much. I was busy helping with cooking and setting up the table in the morning- Dad's side relatives came over for lunch. Then we rushed off in the afternoon to my ahma's place to lao yu sheng. After which, I went to my grand uncle's place and I was playing Bridge and Daidi with my cousins (: The sad thing was NO SASHIMI & YUMMY FOOD this year, referring to granduncle's place. & this year we left exceptionally early too, I think cause my granduncle has some gathering later in the evening. Later in the night, mom's friend visited! The little boy was so clever and cute, naughty too (: DAMN KAWAII NEH!

Tomm: One visiting (I guess), the rest - STUDY x(

I realised life after Chinese New Year will be rather hectic and packed:
- International Economics due on Friday
- Math Test next Monday
- Dance twice a week

- Dinner with MingSze & friends? Dinner at Simon's house next Friday/Saturday? [Fridays always clashed with Dance ): ]

What's more?

P.S I want jacket / cardigan D:

2009-01-14T07:43:00.000-08:00

I'm not at peace now, I feel so grouchy :/
I was so sleepy the whole day, I felt my world was black & grey, sad.
I'm distracted, I can't study properly, & I'm feeling even worse.

At the moment, I feel like screaming my lungs out.
I very much want to drown myself in mugging, but low efficiency made me feel so demoralized.
& when I've nothing at hand, I start to wonder off, bad.

Make it invisible.
Bad Day.

I very much don't want to notice you!

2009-01-13T08:45:00.000-08:00

It's indeed scary, traumatizing. It made me felt so helpless, so weak, so unstable. I need to stay strong, stay firm, live by faith.

2Cor 12: 9 But He saif to me, ''My grace is sufficient got you, for my power is made perfect in weakness,'' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Thanks many many to Charlotte for praying for me, and giving me afew verses. I felt the most for this verse, indeed, I'm weak but I shouldn't be scared for His grace is sufficient and His presence calms me.

Thanks to people whom I rant to, I'm sorry if I scared you or troubled you.

Thanks for calling me to make sure I'm fine, even when you're so tired. It's been awhile since we talked over the phone. Though it isn't long, but it was great (: Sorry for troubling you too.

Experiencing God

2009-01-09T06:46:00.001-08:00

I drank orange juice and ate oranges. (: Mom & Child are digesting in my stomach. Family Reunion!

I've been busy with Open House rehearsal this week, didn't have much time for my work [or should I say, I'm alittle slackish again]. BUT! I'm not going to try, i will kick the habit of procrastinating and get the momentum of studying! Slap me if I'm slacking : O

I need to get:
-Stationaries
-~~Organizer~~ [ Now I'm broke ): ]
-Shoes
-Dress
-Belt

My 4 Resolutions:
-Know Him better
-Serve with passion
-A Levels
-Dance well for SYF

I'm inspired & motivated by people! Thank God for the great friends around me (:

A busy buzzy year ahead. I'm excited, are you?

2009-01-02T21:49:00.000-08:00

It's the third day of 2009. Time flies without waiting, and time will fly even faster this year. What was 2008 like for me? A bitter yet thrilling roller coaster ride, all the ups, all the downs, and of course all the 360 degree rides.

Of course, first thing first, the biggest change in environment, since I've been in a girls' school for 10 years (: Also, the change in system, it's no longer classroom teaching, it's lecture and tutorial style. Anyway, I started off feeling reluctant, for I was posted to CJC when I wanted SAJC / AJC, I tried my best by appealing. Sadly, I didn't make it through. It seems to be a joke, Pei just suddenly ask me to try out NYJC, since she's there, I decided to try my luck (the fact that it was near closing date for appealing). It was amazing how I can successfully appeal out, since it was really a last minute thing. Nevertheless, I didn't carry much hope for it to be fun, I went there purely cause Xuan and Pei were there. The first day I came to NYJC, a fresh feeling with a tinge of excitement, found my OG and sat there quietly. I told myself, I want a different change, thus I decided to give it all out and be really enthusiastic about the whole Orientation. Indeed, it was great pleasure to be in that OG, the fun, the laughters, the joy, everything was just perfect. The only funny thing was, why isn't my name on the namelist? After lessons started, then I realised, I was in the wrong OG, what a joke uh? But it was definitely a blessing. Orientation was a blast, OG15 is the bomb!

Since PAE brought me so much joyous moments, I've decided to stay on. I thought and I hoped really hard that JAE was also the same, but I was too naive. Being an OGL was really difficult, be it trying to mix around with a new group of friends, or trying my best to be a good OGL, it was not easy. And things stopped falling in place nicely. I faced friendship problems at the start of the term, where I keep moving around, which at times made me felt so horrible, felt so lonely, felt so out of place. And I've learnt, when time and circumstances change, things can't remain at it is, not even friends. At the same time, I wanted to accomplish many things, till an extent I forget my limited ability to do so many things. I finally fell after Mid years. It was the scariest moment I had- failing all the subjects. It was then I got to realised, I've got to let go. I started to plan, and finally gave up all my responsibilites and went back dancing, and serving in church, and of course trying to catch up with my work. It was tough, but at least I know it's all worth it.

Finally when school ended, I felt so relieved, and it's finally time for me to recharged! Though the holiday is still rather mundane for me, but at least it was a fruitful one. 2008 let me realise how weak I really was, how vulnerable am I, how useless am I. It was then I realised the importance to plan ahead, the importance of my religion, I've learnt to stay optimistic no matter how difficult it is, looking at things at a different perspective, and smile even if I'm in a difficult situation.

Pei: Hey, how long have we known each other? 3years?! It's amazing how God placed you in my life and since then, we didn't have any big conflicts! Remembering the days we spent together everyday! Tablemates, Ajisen, snacking, playing, cam whoring, Japanese food, shopping, chilling, studying, and the list goes on. Though we're in different schools now, but I'm glad we didn't end the chapter there! You have been an awesome girl, who is there to help me out in Math, gossiping about stupid lame stuff, thank you! (: If I didn't know you, life in Diligence will be different, life will not be as wonderful, and of course, I won't be in NYJC xD

Wanyi: Hey Lessy, I only got to meet you like twice this year?! Life's really different without your sudden laughter, your company.. I really miss you alot. In times of difficulties, you're there to give me a hug, to cheer me on. Even on normal school days, you will surprise me with little things. Those are the memories I've kept since then (: I really hope I'll get to see you soon, be it exercising, studying or plain talking and cam whoring (:

Celeste: Thank you for everything Lao gong! Though I've only seen you twice this year, but nevertheless, I still love you alot! Thanks for all the sweet and wonderful moments in secondary 3 and 4 (: No matter what, you're the best lao gong!

Mervis: Thank you for supporting me throughout the year. Whenever I needed advices, you will be there to help me, providing me with different solutions. Anytime I needed a wake up call, you will be there to remind me about what should be placed in the top priority, and giving me a big push. Indeed, there're times when we faced misunderstandings, but I was glad you will always give in to me, to give me a call to explain and talk things out. I'm really happy to have a friend like you, trying all different ways to encourage me to study! Though it's barely a year, but you have been a very great friend! Thank you for adding such great colours to my life!

Jolene: Buddy! It wasn't a very smooth year, but we all got through it! Sorry for leaving suddenly in the starting of the year, I was indeed selfish for I was afraid I'll be hurt. It's really foolish of me. Nevertheless, you didn't give up on me, instead, you helped me through the tough months after Mid years. You were there to listen to my ranting, my whining, my nonsense, and even encouraging me to persevere. You cheered me on till the end of the race, thank you very much! I'm sorry if I wasn't sensitive enough, I'm sorry if I've done the wrong things unknowingly, I'm sorry if I've hurt you one way or another. But thank you for being a pillar of comfort and support for me. If it wasn't you, I may not have the courage to come this far!

Janice: Monster! I know this year wasn't very great, but congrats, because we got it through! We promoted! You've brought much fun, joy, laughter for thr group. You were there to support me too, and I thank you very much for every little moments we share! May we work even harder this year and strive to do our very best! I can't wait for everything to end and we can play, work, shop, go crazy together!!!

Xin Ying & Wanshu: Hey babes, thanks for making this year a blast, with you in the class, you have made it wonderful, be it Xin Ying's 'wo bu xi huan' or Wanshu's funky crazy dramatic actions, it definitely brought much laughter and fun to me! Let's all work hard this year (:

Alvin: Hello Chipmunk, you're like the only new friend I still talk to in the OG I take. How amazing! Anyway, thanks for all the crazy moments, be it basketball, studying at night, playing the guitar, teaching me vectors in the day and even the night and making me laugh! If it wasn't for you, life after-school will be boring for me. Thank you for giving in to me always, tolerating with my nonsense, keeping me accompany, and even making sure my dad had reached to fetch me before leaving. I haven't seen you for 2 months, where are you?! Anyway, let's work hard together okay! (:

Renyi: hello weird friend xD Thanks for all the crazy moments, all the funny games, teaching me chemistry, keeping me company too! After-school studying will always be so interesting with the both of you! It's been great and it will still be! And you're still suppose to teach me guitar (: Jia You kay!

Yan Jie: Yannie! what a nice name I got for you! Are you happy? Anyway, Thanks for everything, really every single thing. Though I've troubled you alot this year, but you never left me alone in the corner, instead you came over to give me a hand! It was so embarrassing to actually cry infront of you that day, I must have scared you. Sorry for times I wasn't in the right mind, and that you have to tolerate my bad temper! Times you have to be my messenger, times you have to hear me scream, times you have to tolerate with my crap, it's been hard on you, and hereby I apologise! I'm sorry if I weren't good at comforting, but I truly hope you cheer up more! And please, take care of yourself (: You have been a great father, with all the 'you take care hor, message me if got anything happen'. It's like a blessing! i give you 10 stars!

Matthew & Ming Sze: Thanks for keeping me accompany in the morning (B1), and thanks for sending me to the bus stop after the Math Mid year paper (AMS), sorry for the embarrassing moment, till you have to buy tissue for me. Thanks to the both of you for teaching me online, giving me help in Chemistry. Also, thanks for the lame yet entertaining moments in school!

Jin Yuan: Hello twin, it's been ages since I talk/seen you (2months)! I hope you're doing fine now. Anyway, you are a great twin! Thanks for accompanying me study in the night when I'm alone, teaching me Math, cheering me on, everything! It's been great knowing you (:

Everyone I know in NYJC, thanks for all the fun and sweet memories!

[need a break, to be continued]

2008-12-25T06:24:00.000-08:00

Let's have an update!
17.12: Swimming, mugging, catching up session with Lessy freak (:

It was awesome, I finally got to see this little girl I've missed for a year. She's still the same lovable girl, and laughing as ever. We used to share many little things and I'm glad that we still are. It's a great day spent at her house! Love you girl <3>
19.12-21.12: Youth Hour + Fellowship Camp!

It's another great camp! I've learnt much more and I desire to know God's words more and I've the passion to serve Him even more. However, there're still many uncertainties that are holding me back. Help me, Lord.

Anyway, it was a camp with a different experience! Amazing Race from Navigators to ECP (half of the time Bernice and I were bare-footed, cause we wore slippers). We started off to be the last, but we ended up to be the first! [The first will be the last, and the last be first] Maybe it is an experience of God's words? (: Then it was BBQ at Yi Nuo's big big gigantic house! For once, I didn't do the BBQ-ing (: I enjoyed the food. We had alot of joke at my table, the sausage and tabasco.

Ce Ren took the sausage.
Me: Hey, that's my sausage!
Ce Ren: *stares. That sounds wrong!

Qing Feng took the sausage
Bernice: Don't take my sausage!
*People around stared and laugh
Qing Feng/Bernice (cannot remember): Stop poking lah!

Ce Ren and Yi Han were talking about tabasco.
Ce Ren: I'll pour tabasco on you..... and I'll lick it.
Yi Han: OMG, I'll use coconut to protect myself.

[edited]

Then afterwhich we had 姐妹 night. All the sisters entered into the dark hall and bursting balloons with light sticks in it. Holding on to a light stick with number, we have to look for the guy with the same colour light stick and number. However, mine was non existant! Oh wells, so I didn't get anything in the end ): Then people started to watch Scary Movie which is lame. Then sleep!

The next day was sermon and quiet time. After which is Free Time, some went cycling some went to play captain's ball, I chose the latter but in the end I didn't play. The rest of the free time was Dai Di and 请你跟我这样做 with Zhi Ming, Yanling, Jialing, Bernice Qing Feng. Great fun, great laughter! We are the noisiest group (:

Night time activity were simple game with great meaning and awesome worship and sharing! I was really touched during the whole programme! Then Yanling, Qing Feng, Jeremy and Ting Yu had Dai Di / Gold Fish till 3am plus! After that I called Joon Kiat to get us foooooooooooooood! (: After foooooooooooooooooood time, left Qing feng, Jeremy, Yanling and I still awake kicking! We played Dai Di/ Bridge throughout the night! It was super hilarious in between. Well there were 3 people still in the multi purpose room (we were there too) so we got to be very quiet. However, Qing Feng kicked the chair and made some noise and I went SHHHHHHHH at him, who knows, next moment I tripped over the garbage and made noise. Geeeeez, what irony xD Then Jeremy was so tired, he said '8house' when we were bidding (bridge)! There were many little jokes inbetween and it was definitely a great night (: Thank you everyone for making this camp successful, meaningful and wonderful!

The next day I had to go The Legends early for I've to do the ppt, and I was dozing off during the sermon ): Then was the Christmas party, okay lor. Then HOME SWEET HOME (: I was practically dozing off at the bus stop waiting for my dad lah ):

24.12: Candlelight Service

Exhibition @ PS: FellowSHEEEP

Met up with some fellowship people for dinner @ BK then headed to church for the service. Before that we played Dai Di / Bridge again! But this time we felt pressurized, it was more like a Daniel VS Clement game lah! The service is okay lah, quite cool. It ended at 12am! My parents came to fetch me, yay! Then within 1 hour plus, I recieved 50 over msg plus today another 20 plus. Damn cool lah, my phone is exercising alot, vibrating. MERRRY CHRISTMAS!

Lastly: I love Faithfulness Fellowship! <3

Presents!

Given by: Clement. Thanks ah, what a panda!

Given by my aunt (:

Given by Mervis!

Hey Dino, Thanks alot all this while, be it giving me advices to survive in Junior College or messaging me to remind me about studying, bugging me to do my work, I'm really grateful! Frankly, I never thought I'll be good friends with you when I just knew you, but look! It's just amazing how you walked into my life. I apologize for bringing so much problems and troubles to you, but no matter what, I just wish to tell you, you're great and awesome! As for the surprise in my letterbox, I'm really touched. it's a photo puzzle and you must have spend alot of time cutting the picture into the puzzle pieces! 感动 neh! (:

2008-12-16T04:51:00.000-08:00

Last Friends

Last Friends tackles issues that afflict the current generation. Michiru's mother has brought a man back to their home and she is bullied at her workplace where she works as a beauty parlour assistant. She starts cohabiting with her boyfriend, a good young man who works at the Child Welfare Division and the only person who can give her emotional support, but ends up the victim of domestic violence and becomes fearful of love.

The boyishly charming Ruka was a classmate of Michiru's in junior high school. She has performed brilliantly as a motocross racer and aims to win the national championship, but as the story progresses, a deep worry that she can neither confide in her parents or close friends grows evident.

Takeru is a hair and makeup artist acquainted with Ruka. He is a good confidant to females due to his kindness and perceptiveness, and finds himself attracted to Ruka but has a phobia of sex as a result of a past trauma [I think his sister kind of raped him(?)]. The three of them become house mates and through their associations with others, gain the capacity to be positive about life.

synopsis from DramaWiki.

Centered around the current generation's problem, Last Friends follow the various issues, most notably of domestic violence, gender identity disorder and trauma. Each of the five characters are represented by an issue, which are:
Love - Michiru
Liberation - Ruka
Agony - Takeru
Solitude - Eri
Contradiction - Sousuke

I won't go into details about the drama (11 episodes), since it's just revolving certain matters mentioned above. I just thought it was rather exciting at the front, but probably cause the plot was alittle too simple, I don't know. Nevertheless, it was still a great drama! Michiru's transformation from a weakling to a stronger woman who worked hard for her baby, Ruka's perseverance and determination in achieving her goal (a national racer), her undying, unconditional love for Michiru, Takeru's sensitivity and gentleness which brought happiness to the people around and also being able to face problems alone, Eri's happy go lucky character and Sousuke's love for Michiru (though it's conveyed in a wrong way).

I thought Sousuke was a bitch, in a way he kicks, hit Michiru whenever she doesn't do things his way (example: cutting man's hair, meeting Ruka, going home late), and also abusing himself (burn himself with a cigarette) just to blame Michiru indirectly. But it's a way he showed his love. He wanted Michiru for himself, wanting Michiru to see only him in her eyes, in her world, and nothing else. He will tried means and ways to get rid of obstacles (Ruka, Takeru). It is indeed his selfish love for Michiru. But he set her free (get the meaning?).

Should never think someone will be only yours, because in actual fact, she/he is being 'shared' by many other people she/he loves and vice versa.

Lastly (damn sweet),

'Family, friends, a married couple, lovers,
we seem to be one of those,
but we are actually none of those.
We will treasure the fragile happiness
and go as far as we can.
From now on, let's be friends forever.
If possible, without ever seperating.
And if something happen, and we must seperate,
let's meet again someday,
and laugh together,
forever.
my dear friends,
you are my last friends.'
-taken from the jap drama, Last Friends

2008-12-14T06:57:00.000-08:00

It's already more than 10 tissues.
ah-chew :/
But I think I'm exercising my stomach,
do you think I'll get abs out of this?
I wish
Rudolph, the red-nosed reindeer had a very shiny nose. (I'm singing this now..)

2008-12-13T09:22:00.000-08:00

I want one of this, can I?Santa, please...

2008-12-13T09:14:00.001-08:00

Somehow, my week was spent at home, most of the time that is. Nothing bad about it, well I just like lazing around at home, which explains why work will never be completed. I'm getting stressed, again. I seriously need to finish up my work by wed, and start revising, I don't have much time, go go go!

And I thought I could do some work today, but I was wrong. I was helping out with christmas decor stuff for the party (amk qu hui + stone cell group christmas party), then headed down to civil service club at 5pm to put up the stuff. Everything was alright, but I was bored, well simply cause I don't know anyone there, young ones are too young, old ones, talked abit. Everything ended at 9pm. & I was alrdy shagged.

& I end up not doing anything productive (hmwk wise).
I'm sad! Oh did I mention I think I got NIGHT TIME sleeping problem, big one!
Anyone wanna save me?

Next 2 weeks I'll be rather occupied (: yayee! But I need to shop first! Mom, can I?

2008-12-13T09:05:00.000-08:00

It was no joke, I really hope I could take photos of the past.
It is good, but will never be better as before.
It is beautiful, no more.
Regrets, Comparison, maybe, I don't know.

2008-12-10T06:50:00.000-08:00

Balloons make little children happy.
& you make you happy.
I'm glad you're coming back, and I can't wait for the day we go out.

<3

2008-12-10T04:33:00.000-08:00

Parents are parents, seriously. If they think what my brother said make a whole lot of sense, then why isn't he doing it? If you think 'omg, it's so true', then why keep forcing it into me? Even if it does make a hell lot of sense, but I don't see him doing it, I seriously don't think how I should look upon this sentence as a motivation.

If you think tuition is such a waste of money, then stop asking me to look out for tuition! LIKE SERIOUSLY! I know it's for my good, but the way you all put it as if, I'm hopeless and I'm not appreciative.

& FREAKING PLEASE STOP THINKING I DIDN'T STUDY HARD ENOUGH! I DON'T SEEM STRESSED DOESN'T MEAN I'M NOT STRESSED ALRIGHT!

IF YOU AREN'T SUPERVISING ME 24/7, PLEASE STOP SAYING I DIDN'T STUDY!

Why are you give me a hell lot of stress and not him?! STOP SHOOTING ME IN THE FACE LIKE I'VE FUCKING NO FEELING! you burst all the balloons I hold, those that made me really smile.

o.m.g. apologise for such a post.

2008-12-09T06:57:00.000-08:00

Haha. Yes, I was exploring my brother's Mac, and this is the Photo Booth where I tried different mode, rather fun! (: The picture above is an example. Oh & I got Qing Feng to download Skype to play with me, he is like damn funny lah. He loves the 'Shake it' Button ._.

Oh on a lighter note, my cousin just came back from UK with elmo hoodie (apparently it's blue, not cookie monster, idk too) and cookie monster shirt! She asked which one do I want, of course I wanted both, but can't be so greedy >< Thanks girl <3 & she's flying off next week to HK o.o

2008-12-08T22:54:00.000-08:00

okay. I'm using my brother's old macpro. it seems difficult to use, seriously. or you can just say i'm noob xD but not bad lah, seems fun! playing with the webcam function. hoho! Oh skype is fun. I was playing it with cow (joon kiat) till 3 freaking am. Can you believe, we were playing hangman. Damn funny I tell you.

I think I'm a deprived kid.

Oh, buddy, Jan, XY coming my house tmr again (: hohoho, play proj & consultation!

2008-12-08T05:17:00.001-08:00

Quizzes For People Who Have No Life:
Name 10 people you want them to see: List 1-10
1. Qing Feng
2. Wanyi
3. Mervis
4. Yi Li
5. Yan Jie
6. Celeste
7. Eugene Peter
8. Pei Pei
9. Clement
10. Bernice

1) What song does #5 like?
Yan Jie. Emo songs xD He said a lot of random songs.

2) Does #1 like #6?
Qing Feng, Celeste. Cannot! Celeste’s my hubby, and they cannot have 姐弟恋！

3) What does #8 fear?
Pei Pei. She’s afraid she loses me. She’s scared of insects!

4) What do you think #10 thinks of you?
She thinks I’m awesome! No lah, she thinks I’m crazy.

5) What do you think of #4?
Yan Jie. I think he is a super sensible awesome great one and only good father.

6) Which church does #3 go to?
Mervis. He doesn’t go church.

7) Do you think #7 has a crush on somebody?
Eugene Peter. An alien from Mars, since he just came back from there.

8) Does #2 know #8?
Wanyi and Pei Pei. Yar, both classmates for 2 years, with me too!

9) How do you know #1?
Qing Feng. I know him because he’s random and he loves dogs xD Kay lah, we are from the same fellowship.

10) Do you think #3 can be really really good friend with #6?
Mervis, Celeste. Eeh, they don’t know each other. Mervis can do the talking, Celeste can listen, sounds good?

11) Do you like #2?
Wanyi. Of course, definitely, chop chop.

12) Is #5 a nerd?
Yan Jie. No lah, he so smart, don’t need to mug lah.

13) Is #7 your love?
Eugene Peter. Ah, it’s a secret. He’s a chicken, I’m a human.

14) What type of flower does #3 like?
Mervis. Do guys like flowers? Sunflower! Because I like sunflowers!

15) What show #2 watches?
Wanyi. Future films act by me!

16) Is #10 caring towards you?
Bernice. Of course, she is super duper uber nice (:

17) #1 girl or boy?
Qing Feng. He’s mixed. xD

18) Is #10 a Christian?
Bernice. Yes!

19) What are the qualities of #9?
Clement. Random Mugger!

20) What does #3 like to do?
Mervis. I answered in the previous quiz.

21) Do #9 and #1 look alike?
Qing Feng, Clement. Probably, because both are given birth by RANDOM.

22) What made #4 so special?
Yi Li. She’s a child of God. Guess people find her having very funny expressions and being able to play the piano well. Oh she's actually very cute like rabbit (: & she's fun online too!

This quiz is made by none other than the random-no-life Qing Feng (:

2008-12-08T04:36:00.000-08:00

*Jonathan*--I want ELMO SHIEN!!! says:
cause your random stuff super random to the fact that my random brain cant take the random pressure...

the quote of the day (:

P.S Am I really very random? I don't think so.

2008-12-07T23:46:00.000-08:00

Hoho, I've downloaded Skype.
For one and only friend. (:

2008-12-07T21:33:00.000-08:00

1. The one who asked me to do this survey?
Yannie. He didn't ask, just posted it.

2. The relationship between us?

老爸

3. The expression of his?
huh? Don't know. Hopefully (:

4. The most memorable thing she has done for you?
Urmm, folded me a bottle of roses? Probably too many to list.

5. The most memorable thing she said to you?
Can't remember. Probably everytime I'm going home, he will say 'take care ah, anything message me okay!' -I will always give him the 'uhh-o.o' look.

6. If he or she becomes your LOVER, you will?
hmmm, he's not a paedophile, I hope. hah, but he knows I love him still.

7. If he or she becomes your LOVER, what should he/she improve on?
urrr, smile more! (: I don't know lah, love me more!

8. If he or she becomes your enemy you will?
I will cry till it floods his whole house!

9. If he or she becomes your enemy, the reason could be?
urm, he didn't get me urm, foood. No lah, probably cause i'm too self-centred to care about his feelings?

10. The most desirable thing you wanna do for him/her.
paste a happy smile on his face, cool or what?!

11. Your overall impression of him is?
Woah, a sensible caring awesome father.

12. How do you think the people around you feel for you.
loud, stupid, irritating, laughing-for-no-reason.
SOME people thinks I'm a chicken-panda-pig.
anyone wants to help me fill this in?

13. What I love about myself?
I'm so awesomely irresistible.

14.What I dislike about myself?
I love to nap at least 2 hours and then having difficulties sleeping at night.
I'm a procrastinator.

15. The Most Ideal Person you want to be is?
A superhero, maybe a fairy godmother.

16. For people that care, love & concern for you, say something to them?
Thank you, you're great & awesome, I love you very very much! (:

17. Ten people that you pass the survey to is?
#1 Bernice
#2 Eugene Peter
#3 Pei Pei
#4 Alvin
#5 Jolene
#6 Daniel
#7 Iris
#8 Jonathan
#9 Janice
#10 Mervis

18. Who is No.6 having BGR with?
Daniel. Urm, he doesn't want to tell me xD He's very secretive yo!

19. Is No. 9 a male or female?
Janice. Female, like duh.

20. If No.7 & No.10 is together, will it be good?
Iris, Mervis. Maybe it isn't a bad match (:

21. What is No. 2 studying about?
Eugene Peter. He's studying about how to be the best chicken! Kay lah, Economics Math Chemistry Physics GP

22. When is the last time you speak with No.3?
Pei Pei. Yesterday.

23. What music or band you think No.7 like?
Iris. I don't know leh.

24. Does No.1 have any siblings?
Bernice. Yes, an older brother called Benjamin.

25. Would you woo No. 3?
Pei Pei, why not man?! (: better be honoured girl.

26. Would you woo No. 7?
Iris, of course, she's such a cute girl! [makes me sound so flirtatious]

27. Is No. 4 single?
Alvin, should be lah hor?

28. What is the name of No. 5?
Jolene Teo Jia Ling

29. What is the hobby of No.10?
Mervis. Remind me to study. No lah, I don't know leh, eat donuts.

30. Does No. 5 & No. 9 get along well?
Jolene, Janice. OF COURSE, without questioning.

31. Where is No. 2 studying at?
Eugene Peter, some Chicken Farm. Hah , kay lah, Nanyang Junior College.

32. Talk something casually about No. 1?
Bernice, she is so cute, so lovable, so nice, so awesome!

33. Have you developed feelings for No. 6?
Daniel. Of course! Are you honoured?! (i love elmo)

34. Where does No. 9 lives at?
Janice. Seng Kang.

35. What colour does No. 4 likes?
Alvin. Green. you want to tell me?

36. Is No. 1 & No. 5 good friends?
Jolene, Bernice. They don't know each other o.o

37. Is No. 7 sexy?
Iris. yes yes!

38. What is No. 6 doing now?
Daniel. Online.

WHY ISN'T THERE #8, geez still thought I'll get some fun out of this.

2008-12-07T04:17:00.000-08:00

Today was spent as per normal. But I had insonmia last night, only managed to sleep at 3am! And the fact that I need to wake up at 745am, that's impossible [I'm known for being a pig]. But no matter how difficult, as long as I'm obliged to wake up at a certain time, I will, I need, I must! Then I managed to reach The Legends at 9.15am!

After which, rushed down to church to help out in the Youth Hour Games. Well, I'm sorry that I'm judging alittle here and there, but seriously, some of you got to learn what's respect and what's appreciation, of course please improve your attitude. Not that you affect my day very much, but certainly, your 'I-don't-really-want-to-be-involved' or 'it's-so-boring-so-lame' attitude / face is really UNcool to start off with [in a more polite way of phrasing it]. If one should complain about it, I think I've more reasons to do it (?), I've been standing under the sun throughout, and I've got to shout but oh wells, I didn't so I do hope the next time round, at least try to be involved. Nevertheless, hope people did enjoy themselves. & praises to those who showed great enthusiasm! (: Right, upcoming Youth Hour cum Fellowship Camp, hope it will be a success! -Sore Throat. zzzzz

Then we were told that fellowship starts at 2pm, and thus the group of us ate at Kopi Roti (at Dhoby Exchange), in which we hope not to be very late for fellowship. Guess what, it turns out to be that we started at 247pm. hmmmm, then we had some reflection on Street E and stuff. Then Bernice and I were trying to get people to sing for Christmas Party? Rather discouraging.

Sadly, no one was going home with me and I thought I would have to train home alone, worse, WITHOUT MY IPOD! But luckily, Ruth offered to give me a ride, thank you very much! I'm honoured too, it was her 2nd time driving (I think) , how cool is that!

& lastly lastly, thanks Bernice for the little gifts! Love them alot alot, <3

2008-12-06T04:08:00.000-08:00

TWILIGHT

Yes, it is something that everyone's reading, everyone's grabbing, evveryone's anticipating for the movie. I read it too, last year that is. Well, it's something fresh and rather thrilling, but sorry to say, I'm rather disappointed when I saw who is going to act as Edward and Bella. I got agree that Robert Pattinson does look like a vampire. I was browsing through the pictures, I think they look rather gorgeous lah. Probably when I was reading the book, I expected more. Oops.

Well, I'll be catching it with OG15 on 29Dec. Hope it's good! [: BOLT
Another movie that I'm gonna watch, with Yannie (?) Yea yea? when ah?

2008-12-05T21:19:00.000-08:00

Yay! i finially finish all the levels of Hot Dog Bush! Super fun but tiring I tell you (:
3 cheers for me

2008-12-05T09:23:00.001-08:00

bad day, bad headache, bad mood, bad memory.

2008-12-05T05:47:00.000-08:00

I won't see you as a monster anymore.
I've no right to comment when I'm partly wrong, though to you I should be fully blamed.
I will just let it be.

I'll stay focus on what's more important.
Maybe in your eyes, I'm useless and dumb,
but no, I don't really care.
i'll stand firm to become someone I want to be.

Thank you very much.

P.S 'I don't forgive people because I'm weak. I forgive them because I'm strong enough to know people make mistakes.' What do you understand from this?

2008-12-05T05:42:00.000-08:00

I really hope I can fold all agony, hatred, everything unhappy into a plane.
Let it go, let it fly away.
On the surface, it seems like I need to forgive people,
but I think it's more of I need people to forgive me.
Lord, please forgive me for being self-centred.

It's difficult to let it go, I know.

2008-12-04T02:33:00.000-08:00

Dance's a Killer, I say. Everytime after dance, I'll be sweating and panting like hell, super tired. & without fail, once I reach home, I will be sleeping soundly for at least 2 hours! I hope I can sleep so well at night lah.

Well, yesterday Jolene, Janice and Xinying came over to do Econs project, but apparently, we didn't do much xD we were hooked onto some Bloons game! Then I headed down to meet Daniel at 4pm at Bishan Mrt to send Clement off at the airport. He is...... didn't much bother about us, oh wells. Daniel, being nice, bought me dinner, hoho (thanks!) Then headed home to catch the 2nd last bus!

Oh, Hiphop is way better now, & I'm relieved, but I still can't shake my butt >< Whatever! and there's more hiphop practices ))):

2008-11-29T00:00:00.001-08:00

I feel ashamed after reading, right now, at this moment.

2008-11-28T23:35:00.000-08:00

It wasn't me who wanted tuition, why do you have to sound as if I was desperately needing it and that now I'm having tuition, I should be studying very hard and if I'm not, I should be utterly guilty about it? Not referring that I shouldn't study, but unnecessarily and common sense comments shouldn't be made known to make someone else feel so uncomfortable.

Thank you & have a nice day.

2008-11-26T09:04:00.000-08:00

[edit]
As requested, this is a short update (: since it's already 1.04am, and I've to wake up at 615am.
Well, today I went to Buddy's house to do Economics project. I am proud to say I stand through from Yio Chu Kang to Queenstown, to and fro (: Good exercise! Well, we didn't much do anything since none of us (Buddy, Janice, Xingying and me) has any mood to do! So we blog hop alittle before we order Rite Pizza Delivery for lunch, rather yummmmmmy (: then we tried to do alittle here and there, after which I watched my Sakura (blink eyes, smile widely, super happy)! Then we slack around till 5pm before I headed home.
[/edit]
that's yesterday.

as for today (Thursday) I concluded it wasn't a fatabulous day. It started of with dance. Hip hop didn't manage to finish the whole choreographing, and I was planning to leave at 10am. Adding on, since the instructor wasn't in the right mood, she called for a stop and said it should be the SYF dance training already. And I thought something should be done to the hip hop first since Zippy is leaving tmr, so I stayed back for awhile to lend Zippy paper and pen to at least get the formation out. Instead, I got scolded by the instructor for disrespecting her. She said if I'm going to stay awhile more before I leave then I should dance the SYF dance and not bother with other things. She used the example of ''you can't attend english lesson when you're suppose to attend math lesson.''
It was rather humiliating since she said that infront of everyone. Haix, I just wanted to do something to salvage hip hop dance. I was rather affected. I know at the end of the day, SYF is more important but .... I don't know. I don't know if I did the right thing or not. Not that I didn't care about SYF dance (I mean I didn't miss a single lesson till now, and I've been trying my best to perform well), but hip hop faced a bigger problem since it has to be performed on Open House, 13 Jan! & Zippy's only coming back on 10 Jan. So what can we do? Remove the hip hop dance and shift to lyrical after all the efforts? But all I can do is to apologize and leave to meet Bernice.

2nd bad thing for the day is I didn't alight at the right bus stop and had to take a bus back.

3rd bad thing for the day is the train terminates at Yew Tee for some reason (fyi, I finally got a seat) and I got to alight and wait for the next train which was freaking packed.

Of course there's still good thing! I went to Bernice house! Her house is like woah, so big (: I've decided to camp there after A's xD I hope I can, I'm sure it will be fun fun fun! Then Bernice and I went for 'The Promise', a musical concert. Their singing was awesome but pardon me I was really too tired, I fell asleep for 10mins. & the best part is I get to spend some time with Bernice before she flies off to Japan! It was a great time spent with her, catch up with her a little, and shared some stuff. Just love this little Barney <3 Oh don't forget our shopping date after you return yea! Bon Voyage and have fun girl (: Oh at the same time, Bon Voyage OSLE Yunnan! Hope you all will be a fruitful and fun experience!

& I realised standing and not having a seat isn't a bad thing, especially when it's not underground MRT. I get to see different sceneries and really, it's beautiful. Of course I will be more aware of the people around me, and not plain isolating from the world. It can really be fun some times. I remember I used to watch Westside story, and this person speaks stories of everyone on the train as if he knows all of them. But the fact is he was just observing everyone's little details and made up stories, some sort of entertainment (:

A mini update: I've got 4 bruises now.

2008-11-26T07:17:00.000-08:00

CARDCAPTOR SAKURA

This is somewhat the first anime I watched, also an all time favourite of mine. Well the reason why I didn't blog lately was because I'm too engrossed in this anime all over again. Though I've watched it before, but I will never be sick of this anime (partly cause I can't remember a single detail too). Therefore, I re-read the manga and proceed with the anime [70 episodes] + movie 1 + movie2. Finally I'm done finishing all today! (:

Sakura Kinomoto (木之本桜)

She is the new master over the Clow Cards. Through her, I managed to learn how to be really optimistic about almost every little things. Not forgetting, she always put others before herself. Oh, she doesn't complain whenever it comes to do ALL the chores / preparing dinner/ helping out. This is something I have to learn from her! Sakura's optimistic and trustworthy character allows her to be friendly with everybody, and the entire series focuses on the friendships she creates with people, whether strangers, loose acquaintances, or rivals. In fact, her personality is a dominating factor in her relationships, especially with Syaoran. She is indeed one innocent little girl. She practically cherish every single friends & family.

"Everything will surely be all right." (「絶対大丈夫だよ。」, "Zettai daijōbu da yo'')

Syaoran Li (李小狼)

Isn't he just so kawaii neh?! Initially he treated Sakura as a rival as he wanted to collect all the Clow cards too, thus he has to compete with Sakura. At first he was full of himself, thinking for himself only, until he met Sakura. As days passes, he finally sees Sakura's good qualities above all her faults and insecurities. He helped her in any way he could to ensure Sakura's safety during the transformation of Clow cards to Sakura cards and also during the 2nd movie! How sweet (: His straightforwardness and honesty are the charming factors. Even though he may be a guy of few words and seem to be cold, but he never fails to cheer Sakura when she got rejected by Yukito and also doing little things to help Sakura.

The Oh so sweet couple!

Toya Kinomoto (木之本桃矢)

He is Sakura's brother. He likes to call Sakura ''Monster'' and seem to be coincidentally working at places that Sakura will be going to. In actually fact, he has powers that can see the future, thus he will always work at the places that Sakura will be heading to, in order to be around to ensure her safety. Though he seem harsh with words and his care and concern for Sakura was never made known, but he just wanted to protect his loved ones. In another case, he gave up his powers to Yue, in order the continual presence of Yukito, to keep him alive that is. Yukito asked why, he replied,'' if I famish and I come to you, what will you do?'' Yukito replied,'' I'll give you all my food that I have.'' Touya smiled. The love between is indescribable for they are each other's Number One! (: & HE IS SUPER SHUAI ><

Yukito Tsukishiro (月城雪兎)

He is not a human, but just a disguise for Yue. He is awesome in practically everything and is a very good friend of Touya. He is a very gentle person who loves to eat (especially yummy food), 3 times more than a normal human (practically to keep both himself and Yue (depends on other people's power to survive) alive). OH OH OH ISN'T HE SO CHARMING o.o HE IS HE IS HE IS ><

Yue (月)

Cerberus/Kerberos (ケルベロス)

Don't you think he is super uber kawaii neh! He is known as Kero-chan! He loves loves loves sweet pastries and delicacies and all yummy food, not forgetting loves to play games! He is the guardian of the mystical yet dangerous book of Clow cards. He genuinely cares about Sakura, more of good friends than a servant-master-relationship, believing that she will become the next Master of the Clow as he acts as her guide to gather the Cards. Though he thinks he is very charming and seems to be bossy / arrogant, deep down, he cares for Sakura more than ever, trying to protect her from cruel reality (eg. when Yue is losing his power rapidly, near to disappearing & the judgement time)

(After Transformation)

Tomoyo Daidouji (大道寺知世)

She is best friends with Sakura. She is contented just by filiming every moment of Sakura and seeing her wearing costumes [made by Tomoyo] to fight in her adventures. One of her major character traits is her selflessness towards Sakura. Tomoyo is kind, caring, highly intelligent, beautiful, meticulous, and very melodic (she has a superb singing voice and often has solos in choir recitals). Indeed, such simplicity can actually made her happy, this is rare in the reality. But I admire her selflessness and her great sacrifice she made for Sakura without asking for any returns. She said before,''I will be happy as long as the person I like is happy.'' (:

Meiling Li (李苺鈴)

A very noisy and insane girl, crazy over Shaoran. But her nature isn't bad lah (: She adds colour to the anime (fyi, she doesn't appear in the manga)

Eriol Hiiragizawa (柊沢エリオル)
The reincarnation of Clow Reed. Very mature and intelligent (:

Spinel Sun (スピネル・サン)

Similar to : Kero
Uber funny! He gets drunk by eating sweets! xDDDD Creation of Eriol.

Ruby Moon (ルビー・ムーン)

Similar to: Yue

fyi, (s)he is a GUY. Creation of Eriol.

Okay, I didn't fully expressed everything I wanted to in this post, too tired. But in conclusion is, I did learn alot from this anime, and I do love it alot. I may re-watch it again, some day (:

2008-11-18T05:37:00.001-08:00

Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't,
I give myself reasons why I can.
- Author Unknown

2008-11-18T02:56:00.000-08:00

It's the 200th post! Let's celebrate yo!

Okay whatever, I feel nauseous now! I had dance training in the morning, and just awhile ago, I went to try out the 'back roll with split' afew times and I feel horrible, maybe cause the process of doing the back roll is like a roller coaster ride :( Or is it because I'm hungry?

This morning I had to dragged myself up (thanks to my brother's friend who continuously pressing the door bell, calling the phone which made me lose a few minutes of beauty sleep, LOL). Then I reached school at 837am! I thought I was late since it should start at 830am, bu as expected, the Lt4 is like freaking dark with one student and the instructor (playing PSP). Then I went everywhere to search for the switches for the lights, I'm so smart kay :D

Dance was as ever tiring, but not that bad compared to my Secondary school's training, it was hell I tell you (fyi: 9am-5/6pm, about 3 times a week) Well, since many people didn't come, we just kept dancing to brush up our steps. At this part of the dance when we needed to split, I was shocked, why? Cause normally I can't split straight away (floor not smooth, can't slide down), so I will just try my best, but this time I was stepping on my pants, thus I use the same strength to (try) to slide down, but I didn't know so yea, I knocked my knee cap on the floor. There's a big bruise now, ouch! D: not only that, i hurt here and there, injury prone ):

Then ate lunch with Hui Yi at Macs, talking nonsense before heading home to watch teevee and wash the clothes.

P.S my dad is back.
P.P.S my mom didn't get what I want from Beijing
P.P.S I'm not feeling well

2008-11-16T21:04:00.000-08:00

14.11.2008 0823 Class BBQ!

After school, Jolene, Janice and I went to Mos @ AMK Hub for lunch before meeting Yuhua, Steph, Eileen and YY at NTUC Extra to shop. Then Jolene's aunt drove us to Nan Hua (Jolene's Secondary School) to collect the catered food! In the midst of going to ECP, Janice and I taught Yuhua Bridge. Also, we played Dai Di xD

As the carpark is a distance from our Pit (C18), we had to bring the food there ourselves, but kudos to Yuhua who did most of the work!
Then we organize the food and stuff before everyone arrives.

START THE FIRE!
Steph vs Yuhua

WINNER! Girls are capable too!

Some jumpshots while Yuhua carried the stuff over from the car.

CANDID!

Not very wonderful shot.

SUCCESSFUL SHOT!

2nd round of jumpshot with Yuhua while YY, Eileen and Steph went to cycle.

YAY-NESS!

Jolene's slipper flew out!

Janice's and my beautiful hands xD

LOVELIES

The 3 of us! <3

Acting Dumb!

AWESOME!

CHEESE!

THE ~~EMO~~ SWEET COUPLE

I seriously look horrigible!
跑吧！孩子

This looks wrong, we are not raping Jolene!

HUGG

So romantic!

Photographer: Janice Ng

Stress!
Rainbow colours!

Yellow

Orange

Blue

Red's Da Bomb!

RED CRUMPLERS! <3

Camwhoring time!

Jan, Yuhua!

Sze Ting, Hui Yi, Jan

Mario, Steph

The Bridge Gang!

Mushroom & Mario <3>

Jan, Mario, YY

CLASS PHOTO (those present)

All in all, it was great fun! <3

2008-11-12T05:32:00.000-08:00

Let me have a quick update (8/11 - 12/11) :

Sat: first night at my cousin's house. Slept at 4 or 5am.

Sun: went church wearing something urm different from the usual ._. then had Sakae with cousin and aunt (: Yums!

Mon: I woke up a little late, so kind of rushed everything and left the house at about 9am. Once my cousin and I walked out of the lift, it started raining, got a little drenched when we reached the bus stop. Then my cousin boarded her bus and I'm stuck at the bus stop ): I wanted to dash across when the traffic light turn green till I saw a bunch of NYJCians. Geez, frankly speaking, I kinda got a little shocked and wanted to avoid. I even thought of calling Alvin for help (but he's at the Lt1, no reception. It was rather awkward, but EP offer to shelter me, thank yea (: After lesson, Alvin accompanied to my house to check everything and feed my turtles. We went back to school to stone till 4 plus.

Tue: Almost couldn't make it for school in time again. Had lessons till 1215pm then headed to Macs for lunch with Jolene and Janice. At 115pm, headed back to school for dance. It was really tiring. I'm going to have 4 training days 2 weeks later x( But at least there're friends in dance that made it worth it. *guang1* & *stars from our armpits* Super funny!

Wed: Math lesson ended about 30mins earlier xD Then went to Subway with Jolene and Janice then went back to school. I learnt Bridge today, played with Renyi, Twin and Laopa xD & I won about 4 times, I'm so proud of myself! But of course there's still more to learn! Let's play more yea?

Tomorrow, I'll be heading back home to wash my clothes, feed turtles, check everything. Friday there will be class BBQ.

Now for some random photos!

Yes I'm wearing SAJC uniform! I'm a SAINT xD & we are the 3 power-oink pigs! lol.

2008-11-09T09:52:00.000-08:00

Okay I'm in the dark now in my cousin's room. Everyone's alseep except me cause I slept at 830pm. Don't blame me, I know I'm just weird.

'People change, the world changes, even I'm changing. Unknowingly'

2008-11-01T11:16:00.000-07:00

I shouldn't have gone. Yes that is the URGENT talk by Mr Kwek. I can't commit myself for the project so I practically wasted my time there. Anyway crapped with Yannie and Terrence (I didn't know I've a brother, that's him ._.) while waiting for Alvin (Yes, Yannie woke him up by calling him, though I'm the one who pressed call [: ) Then the 3 of us headed to Plaza Sing for lunch @ Carls Jr. I shared fries with Yannie (that's my lunch), then was ICE CREAM! After which I went for window shopping for few minutes. I'm sad, many things I wanted are gone, too bad then. Oh then got a present (: Mission accomplished.

Train back with Yannie. & Please don't be affected by the matter anymore. Just end it soon, if you can yea? Don't wish to see you in such state: 一脚踏六船. but you get what I mean (: Gambatte!

Realised, have been spending much time with Alvin recently, be it online or in school. hoho, providing me with entertainment, thanks dude! (: & you do look like a Chipmunk yo.

Don't think I'm feeling rather well recently (throat specifically).
& I still want my DS Console.
& shopping.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

2008-10-31T09:30:00.000-07:00

Alright, I'm done with quiz, I mean I can't find any that interest me much, anyone has any? (:
What have I done today? Basically, dance in the morning and long nap through the afternoon, and laptop at night. I know I know, I've a boring life.

& the worst is tomorrow I got to drag myself down to school at 9am for Principal's talk for S-L reps and scholars, I seriously see no link.

Oh watched movie with Janice and Jolene on Wednesday : 20th Century Boys, it was crap! & I realised it's rather weird calling someone to say: I PROMOTED! It's rather embarrassing too ): cause the person will only reply: uhh okay. Ah this shows how weird am I.

Firstly, as usual, I've got the phobia of holding on to the movie tickets! (stares at Eugene Peter). But I checked properly before going in okay (: But I never failed to embarrass somehow or another. My reaction was 3 seconds slower, I laughed 3 seconds after people laughed, and I think I laughed rather loudly (unknowingly) and I think some people laughed at me, no?

Then the movie finally started after a long while, both Janice and Jolene fell asleep at different timings, super funny, I had to wake them up every now and then (different ways of waking them up) haha! Then the worse thing is, I waited so patiently for 2 hours plus for the ending, AND IT'S TO BE CONTINUED! WTH?! I don't even know the bad guy can! Stupid ):

2008-10-28T09:08:00.000-07:00

/Edited

alvin says:
dunno what to write...
'crazy: in a quandary says:
i love yijia
'crazy: in a quandary says:
sure EE
alvin says:
cool
alvin says:
okay
alvin says:
if i fail ur fault ah
'crazy: in a quandary says:
LOL
alvin says:
I LOVE YIJIA
'crazy: in a quandary says:
im gonna post it
alvin says:
i shall write that like for 30 times
alvin says:
that will cover 90 words
alvin says:
EE here i come
alvin says:
-.-

(: EE, definitely!

Oh my weekends has been purposeful, doing the Mask & Mime video, posters, and OP slides! Took my beauty sleep away ): But I guess it's worth for the A.
& something happened which freak me out middle of the night on saturday, but was super entertaining (: All I can say it's a prank! Details are confidential ...not, but at least I won't post it here. Slept at 3am! on Average, after 1am for the past few days!

Today I spent my time on OP rehearsal, I&R, and cards! In Between was super fun, I won everything! Then we play other games too! (:

2008-10-28T08:12:00.000-07:00

1. Spell your name backwards.
-aijiy? (Yijia)

2. Pretend you've had 15 beers. Describe what you would be doing right now?
-I won't drink it, I will water the plants with the 15 beers.

3. Where are you right now?
-At home, in my room.

4. What is the closest object to you?
-Laptop, phone, mouse

5. Do you talk to yourself?
-Almost every moment, I'm weird, I know.

6. Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
-Nope, cup yo! or use a straw.

7. Who knows a secret about you?
-Anyone whom I told the secret to.

8. How long is your hair?
-I didn't measure, Shoulder length.

9. How much money do you have in your wallet now?
-Over 20 bucks. I'm broke though.

10. Describe what you're wearing?
-Polo Tee and shorts.

11. Do you like anyone now?
-Yea, guess so, probably.

12. Name things in your wallet.
-Cards, keys, pictures, money, coins, receipts.

13. When was the worst date ever?
-Can't think of any.

14. Is your birthday on a holiday?
-Guess not. If I'm going to be the future President, then it will be a public holiday (:

15. What do you spend most of your money on?
-Random stuff? depends.

16. Last thing you cooked today?
-My brain.

17. Is there something you're angry about?
-Not now.

18. Do you hate someone right now?
-No.

19. Do you think love conquers all?
-Maybe, I don't know

20. Why is the sky blue?
-Because it's not red, orange, yellow, green, purple or white or black.

21. What do you do when you wake up?
-Check time, go back to sleep.

22. Who do you hang out with often?
-Pei? Probably. Or classmates lor.

23. Do you have any regrets?
-Definitely.

24. Do you use an alarm clock?
-Yea, an alarm clock and 2 from handphone.

25. What is your cellphone network?
-Starhub

26. Single?
-Yea

27. When was the last time someone told you that you were cute?
-Don't know, don't care.

28. What do you feel when someone asked you your number?
-Am I suppose to be eggcited? Depends.

29. Have you tried asking someone their number?
-Of course.

30. Do you have bitterness in your heart?
-If I ate bittergourd.

2008-10-28T06:04:00.000-07:00

1. Do you eat alot of fast food?
-Depends. If I've cravings for Burger King or Subway. (Probably Sundays!)

2. Have you kissed anyone in 2008?
-I got kissed before this year ._.

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
-I can't remember. The first emotion: OMG! My alarm is one hour slower! *Rush Rush Rush,
and I was the first to get prepared. zzzzz!

4. What did you last get upset about?
-Eh.. well, depending, I can't remember, maybe my mom? maybe that person? maybe that that person? Or maybe over something minor.

5. Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
-Nah, I hardly buy sweets, more like, stealing sweets from people xD

6. What about in your 5th sent message?
- Alvin: Haha, so are you lucky or unlucky? Make up your mind :P

7. Who was the last person you ate with?
-Myself / you can say my brother, since both of us were watching the teevee while having our dinner.

8. Who is a picture you last took of?
-Hmmm.. I don't know, daniel, the big bird I guess, was a super random photo, and I hasn't recieved it yet ):

9. When ordering sushi, what do you get?
-Don't know, sashimi? egg? unagi? anything?

10. Who was the last person you sat next to?
-Alvin, while playing memory game using cards. Lame uh?

11. Where were you at 10am?
-School, in the midst of my OP rehearsal, I'm sad. It was screwed!

12. what are your plans for today?
-I & R. 7 Hand Poker / Solitaire Showdown with Alvin! & SLEEEEEP, I need a long beauty sleep ):

13. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself just now?
-Can't remember, hey, I'm not that clumsy (:

14. Where is the last place you want to be now?
-Don't know. I'm fine with anywhere.

15. When was the last time you cried?
-Urm. Last week? yesterday? I don't know!

16. What is your favourite song at the moment?
-Urm... I don't know. Guess ''How six songs collide'' is still somewhat in my head, at least the 3.40 part. Oh, this is me from camp rock?

17. What were you doing at 11 last night?
-Hmm. Maybe I was playing online MSN games with Chipmunk?

18. Who's near you?
No one. My brother is sleeping on the 3rd floor, parents watching teevee on the first floor, guess which floor am I on?

19. What were you doing at 5am this morning?
Sleeping?

20. What's bothering you right now?
-What to do tomorrow? I don't know, too sleepy to think anything logical.

21. Who was the last person you talked on the phone to?
-Hui Yi.

22. Whose house did you go to last?
-My house.

23. Who honestly knows everything about you?
-Myself.

24. Who broke your heart?
-Don't know.

25. Honestly, do you love someone very much?
-Of course. Too many to list.

26. Who was the last person who told you that they love you? Boy or girl?
-Anyone loves me?!!!! Don't know.

27. Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
-Yea we are, of course! Girlfriend, miss you <3

28. Are there any parts of your body that hurt?
-Not really

29. In the supermarkets, what is the first thing that catches your attention?
-urm, I don't know. Trolleys?

30. How cool do you think you are?
-That's for you to decide.

31. What was the last mistake you made?
-Urmmm, unable to do well for OP!

32. What are you listening to right now?
-iTunes says Over You by Daughtry.

33. Who is the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
-Alvin. (you appears so many times! o.o)

34. Is there something you want to say to someone special?
-I don't know, I've nothing more to say. I don't know, do anyone have anything to tell me?

7 People You'd like to do this test?
-Anyone, anyone, anyone, anyone, anyone, anyone, anyone. 7 anyones!

2008-10-28T05:07:00.000-07:00

Name 20 people:
1. pei pei
2. rong xuan
3. bernice
4. jin yuan
5. clement
6. alvin
7. jolene teo
8. wanyi
9. benjamin
10. mervis
11. euene
12. janice
13. iris
14. jeremy
15. yihan
16. qian hui
17. yanjie
18. daniel
19. celeste
20. jialing

How did you meet #4?
-Through Eugene Peter lor, while waiting for Nanyang PAE Movie Screening.

What would u do if u never meet #1?
-I would cry. She's the girl who camwhored with me, exercise with me, picnic-ing in class, window shopping mate, etc. Without her, life will be so boring, without her, I won't enjoy myself this much. Without her, I won't be in Nanyang Junior College (:

What if #9 and #20 date?
-Benjamin & Jialing. Eeks, they know each other, but nah, Jialing is attached. Well it will be interesting though (unlikely to happen). Bernice, any comments? (:

Will #6 and #17 date?
-Alvin & Yanjie- impossible combination yo, because... *grins (: I think Alvin and Ren Yi lah. xDD

Describe #3?
-She is a Barney! Apparently she gets alot of Elmo-s too! She is a lovely girl whom I never regret knowing. She brought so much fun and laughter to the times we spent during camps and fellowship. Talking to her and Benjamin simultaneously is super hilarious. In conclusion, she is way awesome and I love her truckloads (:

Is #8 attractive?
-Wanyi. Duh?! She's my niece and lessy freak yo!

Describe #7.
-BUDDAYE! She is cute, prettaye, tall, awesome, sweet. She loves chocolate & flowers. She's they best buddy who is there when I needed her. Everything about her is great and I love her!

Do you know any of #12 family members ?
-Nope. Janice, wanna introduce me to your family? LOL.

#18 confess that he likes me?
-Daniel, how are you going to confess to me?! I don't know, I will stone there and probably laugh my head off. (: & probably Daniel will reply: Sorry I was possessed. zzzzz, right Daniel?

[daniel] a thousand times i've failed still your mercy remains says:
how about just saying Yijia _________ till the end, if you would__________.
-lol.

Would u ever date #1?
-Peipei. OF COURSE, if I'm a guy that is (: pei loves me too right?!

Is #19 single?
-Celeste. She's taken and married! Read the link from my blog. LAO GONG I MISS YOU!

What language do #15 speaks?
-Yihan. English & Chinese & Japanese, more of English though.

Who goes out with #9 normally?
-Benjamin. I don't know, I see him every Sunday only: during service / after service, he will be with his fellowship friends. Ask him if you want to know.

How old is #16?
-Qian Hui, 16 going on 17. Birthday on 09.11 (:

#2 favourtie singer?
-Rong Xuan, not sure ): but anyway, take care girl <3

Would u ever date #4?
-Jin yuan. Maybe? Maybe not? He's my twin yo! Moreover he has a target already. But I realised, twin we didn't go out tgt before? )))):

What is #10 last name?
-Mervis Toh (: hope you're doing fine (:

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
-Eugene Peter. Maybe, but nah, maybe not. He has alot of scandals and probably admirers. I don't want to get killed.

What is #3 school?
- Bernice. Holy Innocent High, said Clement. I can never remember, too long ): Sorry.

Where does #6 lives?
-Alvin. In a cage, chipmunk. No lah, near school, but I don't know where.

Whats ur favourite things about #5?
-Clement. Nothing. (: Don't know lah. His stupidity, lameness, eeks being such a pro in his studies. Raffles JC yo!

Seen #2 naked before?
-URRRRRRR.. Need more to say?

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