大笨蛋！I realized it is still very difficult for me to kick my habit of procrastinating D: Haven't been able to perform as well as i wanted myself to be. What's my problem? I can't help but to sleep my afternoon away, and watching loads of videos through the night! RAH, I don't want to forgo my second chance, NO! [Lord let me focus let me focus let me focus!]

Finally I'm feeling the stress, stress to do well and not only a pass! It's kickin' in! Oh not forgetting the amount of work!!! My goodness, I have extra extra extra chemistry practices, one econs assignment per week, math class test every now and then, extra extra lessons and now tuition homework toooo! If last year was busy, this year will be extra ultra super busy! I've received my homework outline Term 3 for econs: lecture + tutorial hmwk + one assignment a week + 500 words summary for each article given! [jaw dropped]

On the other hand, probably God is providing me enough work and deadlines to push me to do my work and have extra practice! :D He knows me well!!!! Alright, i will do my part tooooo! But firstly I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeed to plan my time for extra practices and consultations!!! Thank God for the awesome tutors!!!! :D YAY!

God really has His plans for me. I SEE IT NOWWW, HE KNOWS WHAT'S BEST FOR ME! If I didn't get such results, I would be still struggling to be true to myself and finding my genuine self and of course not able to humble myself down! I thought 2nd chance was already a blessing, but who knows, the awesome tutors, the awesome tuition teacher, the awesome classmates, the awesome friends, brothers and sisters - they are the ones who made me happy and support me through this journey! THANKS YOU VERY MUCH :D + MANY MANY PRAISES FOR THE AWESOME ALMIGHTY GOD! :D

[Okay, now it's my part to push myself out of comfort zone, give me strength Lord!]
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That aside, I'm doing well now, apparently much much happier than before. Don't ask me why, because I don't even know myself (: Maybe I've finally humble myself down, not wanting any additional attention, just wanna live as who I am and truly count my blessings (:

Something I'm guilty of is my studies and my spiritual walk. /: God gave me an additional chance, I don't wish to waste it just like that! So I wanna do it once more for myself and this time not with my own ability but truly through Him :D & in order to do so, I need and I want and I will build up my relationship with Him, for He is the one who gave me so much grace and blessings which I don't deserve at all!

He gave me a simple brain, maybe I misused it at times - thinking too much, but yet this little brain is filled with cranky ideas of how can I make someone's day happier, how one day I can have my fairytale, just plenty of imagination while daydreaming. & by thinking of all the nonsensical impossible things, I will feel much happier because it's hope and belief that one day maybe it will happen too (:

I truly wish how I am feeling now can continue..... Simply humbling myself down and not chase those materialistic stuff. & I believe I can be happy even when I'm standing alone, without you :D

& to you Earthlings out there, I hope you are happy too! :D keep smiling!
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Hi Earthlings I'm back. I have many thoughts running through my mind, but somewhat I think I've lost my inspiration / or whatever I've typed just can't fully describe how I'm feeling! D:

Cut it short, I think I'm a drama fanatic & a silly girl who loves and believes in daydreaming in the most impossible fairytale like stories :D Every drama gives me a little warmth, love, hope and definitely drained loads of my tears! Every drama has its special meaning beneath it, something I can learn and change. Not only can it make me cry, it can make it smile at the end of the show, because it's always a happy ending! (something that is unpredictable in reality)

You must be thinking I'm weird, I don't deny. Unknowingly, Drama and Music have accompanied for many years, giving me different mixed emotions at the end of each show / song. You may think I'm too naive, but I still believe in my fairytale, that one day it'll happen.

Till then, let drama and music bring me through a series of different stories that can truly touched my heart, let me cry my lungs out, or just simply smile because it is another happy ending.

{I'm just weird, maybe I'm a little too emotionally attached to each drama I watched :D}
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