Alright, I'm done with quiz, I mean I can't find any that interest me much, anyone has any? (:
What have I done today? Basically, dance in the morning and long nap through the afternoon, and laptop at night. I know I know, I've a boring life.

& the worst is tomorrow I got to drag myself down to school at 9am for Principal's talk for S-L reps and scholars, I seriously see no link.

Oh watched movie with Janice and Jolene on Wednesday : 20th Century Boys, it was crap! & I realised it's rather weird calling someone to say: I PROMOTED! It's rather embarrassing too ): cause the person will only reply: uhh okay. Ah this shows how weird am I.

Firstly, as usual, I've got the phobia of holding on to the movie tickets! (stares at Eugene Peter). But I checked properly before going in okay (: But I never failed to embarrass somehow or another. My reaction was 3 seconds slower, I laughed 3 seconds after people laughed, and I think I laughed rather loudly (unknowingly) and I think some people laughed at me, no?

Then the movie finally started after a long while, both Janice and Jolene fell asleep at different timings, super funny, I had to wake them up every now and then (different ways of waking them up) haha! Then the worse thing is, I waited so patiently for 2 hours plus for the ending, AND IT'S TO BE CONTINUED! WTH?! I don't even know the bad guy can! Stupid ):
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/Edited

alvin says:
dunno what to write...
'crazy: in a quandary says:
i love yijia
'crazy: in a quandary says:
sure EE
alvin says:
cool
alvin says:
okay
alvin says:
if i fail ur fault ah
'crazy: in a quandary says:
LOL
alvin says:
I LOVE YIJIA
'crazy: in a quandary says:
im gonna post it
alvin says:
i shall write that like for 30 times
alvin says:
that will cover 90 words
alvin says:
EE here i come
alvin says:
-.-

(: EE, definitely!

Oh my weekends has been purposeful, doing the Mask & Mime video, posters, and OP slides! Took my beauty sleep away ): But I guess it's worth for the A.
& something happened which freak me out middle of the night on saturday, but was super entertaining (: All I can say it's a prank! Details are confidential ...not, but at least I won't post it here. Slept at 3am! on Average, after 1am for the past few days!

Today I spent my time on OP rehearsal, I&R, and cards! In Between was super fun, I won everything! Then we play other games too! (:
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1. Spell your name backwards.
-aijiy? (Yijia)

2. Pretend you've had 15 beers. Describe what you would be doing right now?
-I won't drink it, I will water the plants with the 15 beers.

3. Where are you right now?
-At home, in my room.

4. What is the closest object to you?
-Laptop, phone, mouse

5. Do you talk to yourself?
-Almost every moment, I'm weird, I know.

6. Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
-Nope, cup yo! or use a straw.

7. Who knows a secret about you?
-Anyone whom I told the secret to.

8. How long is your hair?
-I didn't measure, Shoulder length.

9. How much money do you have in your wallet now?
-Over 20 bucks. I'm broke though.

10. Describe what you're wearing?
-Polo Tee and shorts.

11. Do you like anyone now?
-Yea, guess so, probably.

12. Name things in your wallet.
-Cards, keys, pictures, money, coins, receipts.

13. When was the worst date ever?
-Can't think of any.

14. Is your birthday on a holiday?
-Guess not. If I'm going to be the future President, then it will be a public holiday (:

15. What do you spend most of your money on?
-Random stuff? depends.

16. Last thing you cooked today?
-My brain.

17. Is there something you're angry about?
-Not now.

18. Do you hate someone right now?
-No.

19. Do you think love conquers all?
-Maybe, I don't know

20. Why is the sky blue?
-Because it's not red, orange, yellow, green, purple or white or black.

21. What do you do when you wake up?
-Check time, go back to sleep.

22. Who do you hang out with often?
-Pei? Probably. Or classmates lor.

23. Do you have any regrets?
-Definitely.

24. Do you use an alarm clock?
-Yea, an alarm clock and 2 from handphone.

25. What is your cellphone network?
-Starhub

26. Single?
-Yea

27. When was the last time someone told you that you were cute?
-Don't know, don't care.

28. What do you feel when someone asked you your number?
-Am I suppose to be eggcited? Depends.

29. Have you tried asking someone their number?
-Of course.

30. Do you have bitterness in your heart?
-If I ate bittergourd.
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1. Do you eat alot of fast food?
-Depends. If I've cravings for Burger King or Subway. (Probably Sundays!)



2. Have you kissed anyone in 2008?
-I got kissed before this year ._.



3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
-I can't remember. The first emotion: OMG! My alarm is one hour slower! *Rush Rush Rush,
and I was the first to get prepared. zzzzz!



4. What did you last get upset about?
-Eh.. well, depending, I can't remember, maybe my mom? maybe that person? maybe that that person? Or maybe over something minor.



5. Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
-Nah, I hardly buy sweets, more like, stealing sweets from people xD



6. What about in your 5th sent message?
- Alvin: Haha, so are you lucky or unlucky? Make up your mind :P



7. Who was the last person you ate with?
-Myself / you can say my brother, since both of us were watching the teevee while having our dinner.



8. Who is a picture you last took of?
-Hmmm.. I don't know, daniel, the big bird I guess, was a super random photo, and I hasn't recieved it yet ):

9. When ordering sushi, what do you get?
-Don't know, sashimi? egg? unagi? anything?


10. Who was the last person you sat next to?
-Alvin, while playing memory game using cards. Lame uh?


11. Where were you at 10am?
-School, in the midst of my OP rehearsal, I'm sad. It was screwed!


12. what are your plans for today?
-I & R. 7 Hand Poker / Solitaire Showdown with Alvin! & SLEEEEEP, I need a long beauty sleep ):


13. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself just now?
-Can't remember, hey, I'm not that clumsy (:


14. Where is the last place you want to be now?
-Don't know. I'm fine with anywhere.


15. When was the last time you cried?
-Urm. Last week? yesterday? I don't know!


16. What is your favourite song at the moment?
-Urm... I don't know. Guess ''How six songs collide'' is still somewhat in my head, at least the 3.40 part. Oh, this is me from camp rock?


17. What were you doing at 11 last night?
-Hmm. Maybe I was playing online MSN games with Chipmunk?


18. Who's near you?
No one. My brother is sleeping on the 3rd floor, parents watching teevee on the first floor, guess which floor am I on?

19. What were you doing at 5am this morning?
Sleeping?


20. What's bothering you right now?
-What to do tomorrow? I don't know, too sleepy to think anything logical.


21. Who was the last person you talked on the phone to?
-Hui Yi.


22. Whose house did you go to last?
-My house.


23. Who honestly knows everything about you?
-Myself.

24. Who broke your heart?
-Don't know.

25. Honestly, do you love someone very much?
-Of course. Too many to list.

26. Who was the last person who told you that they love you? Boy or girl?
-Anyone loves me?!!!! Don't know.

27. Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
-Yea we are, of course! Girlfriend, miss you <3

28. Are there any parts of your body that hurt?
-Not really

29. In the supermarkets, what is the first thing that catches your attention?
-urm, I don't know. Trolleys?

30. How cool do you think you are?
-That's for you to decide.

31. What was the last mistake you made?
-Urmmm, unable to do well for OP!

32. What are you listening to right now?
-iTunes says Over You by Daughtry.

33. Who is the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
-Alvin. (you appears so many times! o.o)

34. Is there something you want to say to someone special?
-I don't know, I've nothing more to say. I don't know, do anyone have anything to tell me?

7 People You'd like to do this test?
-Anyone, anyone, anyone, anyone, anyone, anyone, anyone. 7 anyones!
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Name 20 people:
1. pei pei
2. rong xuan
3. bernice
4. jin yuan
5. clement
6. alvin
7. jolene teo
8. wanyi
9. benjamin
10. mervis
11. euene
12. janice
13. iris
14. jeremy
15. yihan
16. qian hui
17. yanjie
18. daniel
19. celeste
20. jialing

How did you meet #4?
-Through Eugene Peter lor, while waiting for Nanyang PAE Movie Screening.

What would u do if u never meet #1?
-I would cry. She's the girl who camwhored with me, exercise with me, picnic-ing in class, window shopping mate, etc. Without her, life will be so boring, without her, I won't enjoy myself this much. Without her, I won't be in Nanyang Junior College (:

What if #9 and #20 date?
-Benjamin & Jialing. Eeks, they know each other, but nah, Jialing is attached. Well it will be interesting though (unlikely to happen). Bernice, any comments? (:

Will #6 and #17 date?
-Alvin & Yanjie- impossible combination yo, because... *grins (: I think Alvin and Ren Yi lah. xDD

Describe #3?
-She is a Barney! Apparently she gets alot of Elmo-s too! She is a lovely girl whom I never regret knowing. She brought so much fun and laughter to the times we spent during camps and fellowship. Talking to her and Benjamin simultaneously is super hilarious. In conclusion, she is way awesome and I love her truckloads (:

Is #8 attractive?
-Wanyi. Duh?! She's my niece and lessy freak yo!

Describe #7.
-BUDDAYE! She is cute, prettaye, tall, awesome, sweet. She loves chocolate & flowers. She's they best buddy who is there when I needed her. Everything about her is great and I love her!

Do you know any of #12 family members ?
-Nope. Janice, wanna introduce me to your family? LOL.

#18 confess that he likes me?
-Daniel, how are you going to confess to me?! I don't know, I will stone there and probably laugh my head off. (: & probably Daniel will reply: Sorry I was possessed. zzzzz, right Daniel?

[daniel] a thousand times i've failed still your mercy remains says:
how about just saying Yijia _________ till the end, if you would__________.
-lol.

Would u ever date #1?
-Peipei. OF COURSE, if I'm a guy that is (: pei loves me too right?!

Is #19 single?
-Celeste. She's taken and married! Read the link from my blog. LAO GONG I MISS YOU!

What language do #15 speaks?
-Yihan. English & Chinese & Japanese, more of English though.

Who goes out with #9 normally?
-Benjamin. I don't know, I see him every Sunday only: during service / after service, he will be with his fellowship friends. Ask him if you want to know.

How old is #16?
-Qian Hui, 16 going on 17. Birthday on 09.11 (:

#2 favourtie singer?
-Rong Xuan, not sure ): but anyway, take care girl <3

Would u ever date #4?
-Jin yuan. Maybe? Maybe not? He's my twin yo! Moreover he has a target already. But I realised, twin we didn't go out tgt before? )))):

What is #10 last name?
-Mervis Toh (: hope you're doing fine (:

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
-Eugene Peter. Maybe, but nah, maybe not. He has alot of scandals and probably admirers. I don't want to get killed.

What is #3 school?
- Bernice. Holy Innocent High, said Clement. I can never remember, too long ): Sorry.

Where does #6 lives?
-Alvin. In a cage, chipmunk. No lah, near school, but I don't know where.

Whats ur favourite things about #5?
-Clement. Nothing. (: Don't know lah. His stupidity, lameness, eeks being such a pro in his studies. Raffles JC yo!

Seen #2 naked before?
-URRRRRRR.. Need more to say?

tag 5 ppl to do this quiz
*, *, *, * ,*
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Today was kinda boring until the afternoon. My PW group finally got the skit filmed! Now need to wait for Buddy to send me to edit (: But I'm shagged, totally. Had Basketball today with Pei. Ren Yi, Chipmunk, Ren Yi's friend, Chipmunk's friend, Ming Sze, then was with Boon Kit and friends. Rather fun and exciting lah! (: but my thumb got scratched and I fell down ): Oh, I hurt my ankle and my finger too! It's getting on my nerves - my fingers! PAIN! ):

&sorry Ren Yi for accidentally scratching your face.

P.S I wonder if I can dance tomorrow.. zzzzzzzz

P.P.S Memories start flowing back when I walked past it. & all I can do is to walk away with my head lowered, because I don't want to be reminded that we were once close. I don't show it doesn't mean I've forgotten and gotten over it.
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I think I'm going to be sick again. At least I'm having sore throat now! anyone wants to gimme strepsils tomorrow? /:

P.S thank you Daniel The Elmo who got me a lollipop! (After he read my nick, how sweet?!)
(:
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Alright, I just had a 30 min run. It was refreshing, but it was a short one cause I hadn't drunk anything after breakfast and was dehydrating under the hot sun. Oh and cause my heat rash has come haunting me. It's very very itchy now ):

Alright, before I enjoy my bath, I'm gonna reshuffle my stuff!

P.S I need more exercising!
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Maybe I did regret just a tad. I regret not taking a photo with you before we part and never gonna turn back again. I regret that I pull back from asking to take a photo with you, because if I had, now at least I will be left with that photo of memories and not an empty feeling.

Maybe you did understand how I felt, that's why we felt like strangers.
But I don't regret leaving you, because if I hadn't, I will only keep thinking how insignificant I am to you, and how much you didn't bother. But somehow, what you blogged always make me so emotional.

/I'll take photo with every friend I know, before and guiltiness overwhelmed me one fine day.
But I just don't have the courage because I'm afraid you don't want to take with me.

Friend, will you take a photo with me?
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O.M.G! I'm gonna hate this man, wait I'm already hating this. Because some American friends of my mom, I've got to sacrifice my room and move to my brother's (fyi, my brother doesn't sleep in his room) and my parents freaking shift my things (this doesn't matter), the thing is they touched my things and now I can't find what I want, and I've got to reshuffle my things!! How irritating, seriously, I rather sleep in the living room...

That's not enough! My brother's friend took my mouse without asking me!!! HELLO MANNERS ): though it's a mac mouse for my brother's mac pro but it's next to my laptop, common sense - I'M USING IT! W W W W Whatever.

Next up PW! We were rushing last minute vetting cause our leader didn't check and there were mistakes here and there and Yan Yin had to pay for the printing.

The only 2 plus points are: i recieved a letter from Buddy! How loving is that? At least there's someone willing to write to me, I'm touched. & met up with Pei to get her jacket and window shopping! Seeing her twice next week again!!!!

Okay, alittle over fired up.
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I miss writing letters. Reading those letters, reading those cards, reading lines and lines of love, I really miss it. Missing those times reading it, replying it, rushing it, apologizing for dragging, satisfaction of finish it, anticipation for it, every bits of joy I used to have, it's.... gone. Guess not many has the same sentiment as me. I'm just weird. I've got the urge to write letters again, anyone? :/

P.S I miss camwhoring too, those times, those memories.
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Alright, I've finally pulled myself back into a piece (: maybe I really can be strong.
After afew nights of reflection, I'm finally gotten myself out of the temptation.

IT isn't everything, and sudden temptation shouldn't be the cause.

Maybe we're still ever so far, but at least I'm not feeling as uncomfortable as before.

& I think I know why God has brought you into my life, though I may blame you for something but at least I think I did learn something from you each day.

Today was super awesome! Though 2 hours of OP lecture may seem rather dry but some in between role plays of LuLu and Lily are really hilarious!! After which, I had PW tutorial, nothing much lah. what can I say.. Then I had lunch with Buddy and Monster #2 while waiting for Pei to come!!! After short talks with Yanting, Mario, Yi Ping and Su Jin, I played basketball with Pei, Chipmunk and Renyi. /edit: Pei tricked me into looking at one of the noticeboard!! I turned my head and she started laughing hysterically! >:/ haha!

Then came along 大鸟(danial)!!!! He was freaking funny, he never fails to make me laugh make me smile!! Though he bully me (everyone did, cause I suck at basketball, 大鸟 told them don't need to block me, and I really didn't shoot in!! So embarrassing lah!), but his company was awesome!! His tyco shooting skills is equally superb! 3 pointer, centre line, one line behind centre line, ALL IN (:

But something bad happened when we played half way, at the other court (nearer to the flats), we heard breaking of glass, someone threw a beer bottle over to the court and it smashed! Goodness, luckily there wasn't anyone! 大鸟 wasn't happy and I think he wanted to report (?!) But we ignored in the end, I shall tell Mrs Tan tomorrow. Then there were some random basketball players who joined in, was alright but can see they gave in to us every time. After 大鸟 left, then came Daniel and friend! But subsequently they left and only Pei, Daniel and me stayed to play horse, I WON I WON!!! (: Played for 3 hours in total, I want more of such games!

At night, my mom cooked, and hey not bad, the food is rather nice tonight!

GOOD DAY <3

P.S STUDY HARD & GOOD LUCK TO TIGER (name given to Danial, by ME!) I will miss playing basketball with you! (not like you know my blog.)
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I'm fine, I just need to throw away what I'm holding on, things that I know I will never get it. Maybe this is my life and I got to learn to accept it. Life's like that, isn't it?

I think since young I've already closed myself up and everytime I learnt to open up, I will just get hurt. It became more difficult for me to open up once more;

Hey, I know I'm irritating and like to complain, but at least I'm sure, I've been constantly telling myself to be strong and I know after a sleep, I'll be smiling once again. Maybe there's many times I failed to, but give me some time, I will be strong.

I keep reminding myself this can't go on, but everytime I look at you, your eyes only have that someone else.

It's time.
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人在成长的过程中，
难免遇到挫折，
懂得保护自己，
也要懂得爱自己。

生命的乐章，
看你自己如何去谱写。

躲避不一定躲得过，
面对不一定最难受，
得到不一定能长久，
失去不一定不再有，
转生不一定最软弱。

别急着说别无选择，
别以为世上只有对与错，
许多事情的答案都不只一个，
所以我们永远有路可以走。

你能找到理由难过，
也一定能找到快乐。

懂得放心的人找到轻松，
懂得遗忘的人找到自由，
懂得关怀的人找到朋友。

That was a message from someone. It definitely had reminded me about things I've overlooked. It encouraged me that though I may be facing difficulties and struggles, I may feel that it is end of the world, but hey maybe stepping back and looking at the whole situation may widen my choices. Maybe it wasn't as bad as I think it is, and definitely, God has plans for me already. Thanks for the message. I hope people who are facing problems will get some encouragement out of this too!

But that's not it, I don't know when I'm self convincing or am I in denial, or am I really that strong, am I really independent? for a moment, I'm really lost. There's so many things I wish to get, but I've got to throw it away because I'm scared, because because because..... I don't know what I'm saying again. /back to square one.
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This Is Me from the Movie 'Camp Rock'
Mitchie: I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world, What I've got to say
But I have this dream, Bright inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time, to let you know
To let you know
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, Shine on me
Now I've found, who i am, there's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This me
Mitchie: Do you know what it's like?
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life, when you're a shining star
Even though it seems, like its to far away
I have to believe, in myself
It's the only way
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Shane: You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singingI need to find you, I got to find youYou're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
Both: I got to find you
Mitchie: This is real, this is me
Both: I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now, gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found who I am, there's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
Yeah
Mitchie: This is me, Ohhh
Shane: You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me
I need to find you
Mitchie: This is me
Shane:You're the voice I here inside my head, the reason that I'm singing
Both: Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

When is it my turn?
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/edited.

I've been on a Roller Coaster Ride for nearly half a year, when will it stop? I know I can handle, but am I willing / can I ever face it?

No, a freaking U for Chemistry was expected, but why does it still seem to be a big blow? How come I've lost my confidence, my faith, my desire to even continue this route?

In Between...
retain & promote
happy that exams are over & sad that I know i didn't do well
annoyed & worried
SANE & INSANE
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