偶尔收到一句问候也挺温馨的。。。
/我这才发觉到，原来幸福可以这么的简单，为何追求完美，一个不可能的境界，一个只能在梦里追求的愿望。。
但。。。我还是会希望偶尔惊喜也能降临在我身上。(:

已经决定的事本来就该放在一旁，但自讨苦吃的我又莫名其妙地一直想着它。是因为想做出最佳的选择，还是只因为一心念念不忘，不肯放下？不知不觉，因为冷漠，因为孤军作战的疲惫，我已经放弃，放弃了选择的权利。剩余的只有狼狈与无奈！

期望太高，失望就越大，命中注定的，也勉强不来，就顺其自然吧。
但不要守株待兔，知道自己尽了力就够了，因为至少我也为自己努力过！:D

It's always someone else's dream I had & it's always someone else who is there;
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Every time I pressed the button, I'm like planting a bomb on my head.
/Self Destruction. Maybe I do still have some reservation to my decision.
Geez, sucks totally.
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Yesterday was interesting.
Well I was supposed to go AJ after school to find peipei, but I couldn't make it, I'm sorry pei x(
Then I stayed in school for Night Study since my parents had dinner and could only fetch me after 9pm (I wanted them to fetch me. It was pouring cats and dogs and kittens and puppies, rather reluctant to take public transport.)

After a while, I got restles again, as usual. Then I wanted to take a walk around atrium and random places, in the end, I ended up at C & C disturbing Ying Chen and Qing Wei.

Side track alittle, it's amazing. It was this year that I talked so much to Ying Chen when actually she was my Secondary 3 and 4 classmate and it was only on my birthday that we really started talking. That day, we had a Stnicks VS Chungcheng and Victoria Chinese Battle. After that, I began talking to Ying Chen more, & I'm gald. Oh also, I knew Qing Wei during the level camp facilitator training, it was also because of the battle and (yar) that I started talking to him. Interesting uh/

Back to topic. Then I was being warned by Ying Chen to get back studying but in the end I went out with her to get some gloves and cloth xD Followed by cups counting for Teachers' Day and spring cleaning of the SC rooms. There's alot of things I've witnessed then that got me thinking about some other stuff. It was never what I thought about SC. All in all, it's fun (: & somehow I kinda regret that tiny weeny bit that I didn't join SC. Anyway Ying Chen: I'm here if you want to explode, I'll cry with you if you feel like crying. Stnicks will always be the bomb! Cheers and Gambatte! & I conclude, Qing Wei lives on water.

After missing in action for 2 hours plus, I went back to the canteen to find Chipmunk. Then we kinda slacked by playing the guitar, singing, etc. I can't remember the councillor wearing the shirt with the word STALKER, assume his name is Stalker. He is frigging lame and funny, wearing that scary ghost mask, posing for the camera with the tin of biscuits, changing lyrics of songs and dancing mass dance were absolute retarded-ness. Apparently my parents forgot that I'm still in school, therefore I was stoning in school till 1020pm. Thanks Chipmunk and Renyi for staying back with me (x

Monday morning: Talk with Ying Chen! Looking forward to it! <3
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Alright I know I'm missing in action for quite some time, here's so updates.

The week has beeen greeeeeaaat, awesome, mainly cause there's the long weekend National Day holiday, The Beijing Olympics (Spectacular Opening on 080808), and of course MY BIRTHDAY (:
070808, I finally met my dear dear dearest PeiPei xD We went to Ajisen and ate for about 2 hours and went Popular to shop for stationary! Time passes really past, this is the 4th year of our friendship, and I'm very happy to have this little girl present in my life! Love you lots girl <3>!

080808, it was National Day celebration in school and it's lame? It was some cultural performance and poetry sharing, then it was games. I'm sure Phoenix was the BEST! We (everyone from Phoenix) practically stone there, didn't bother trying to participate in any games (x But at the last part, we cheered the loudest! Oh dear Wanshu was so enthusiastic, she went to ask for the mic to sing the songs xD After that, I wasn't feeling that alright but still went to watch The Mummy with Yannie. & I met over 10 SNGS people, it's was so amazing yet eerie, cause I seem so old already, when was i still a stnicks girl? 8 months ago! The Mummy was funny and super lame, not much of a content but laughing at the stupidity of the show. (:

090808, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUT<3
alright there's Economics tuition #Lesson 1. At first I was dreaded to go but hey I'm glad to have her as my tuition teacher, she is awesome. She made me understand more, be it the content wise or the skills xD YAY! Then after tuition, my mom went out with me to shop for my present. 2 hours of shopping and I manage to get an Adidas bag, a nike water bottle & a pair of FBT shorts! SUPER YAYYYY, thanks Mom.

100808, Barney gave me my birthday present but I didn't manage to get any for her, so Jialing and I were thinking very hard what to get her. In the end I suggested piercing!! But somehow I was also pulled in to pierce xD Super exciting and fun, lol. Then it was fellowship, thanks everyone! We had a mini celebration and thanks Charlotte and Daniel for the presents! At night my family went to this Korean restaurant for dinner, didn't exactly enjoy since I wanted Japanese, and the Korean food there isn't very enjoyable either.

110808, Study and Movie Session with EP (Euene, Eugene, whatever you want to call him). He was late for about 20 minutes, bah. Then we went Pasta Mania for lunch and both of us didn't manage to finish our food, ha! We headed to buy the tickets for The Dark Knight and then to Starbucks @ The Cathay. Studied for about an hour plus and for don't-know-what-reason, we were kind of chased out, I don't know, the person was mumbling a whole chunk of words and all I heard was ''No Studying'' when everyone was studying x( But we still left the place and loiter for an hour. This time I didn't hold on to the tickets, I wasn't allowed I guess xD (inner joke). The dark knight was pretty interesting and cool, but maybe a little long. That's about it. Oh thanks EP for the lunch and Starbucks and popcorn (throwing at him). (: HAPPY!

120908: HAPPY BRITHDAY BARNEY <3

130808, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY xD Thanks everyone.
-Calling me at 12am ( fyi, I slept at 1130pm on 120808) : Peiling, Hui Yi.

-Birthday Messages: Yan Jie, Jin Yuan, Benjamin, Ren Yi, Bernice, Jun Jie, Chong Xin, Eugene (not EP), Yue Ying, Zhi Yuan, Chi Wei, Jolene, Chun Fui, Peiling, Hui Yi, Clement, Pearl, Yihan, Iris, Eliza, Coco, Sze Ting, Wanyi, Amanda, Matthew, Charlotte, ''Guardian Angel'', Zhi Wei, Audrey, Tin Wai, Daniel, Wendy, Suzanne, Chu Yan, Vivien (according to my phone) But of course there's still other people like, EP, Terence, Glenda, Xuan Xuan, Hannah, Ming Sze, Qing Wei, my classmates, Jia Rong, Daniel Emo Kid, Shinna, Mr Seah, Mrs Tan, Ms Theresia, Qingfeng, church friends and everyone else xD I love you to bits.

-Thanks for the presents, they are lovely (:

Alright so this year. my wish was for many surprises and I didn't expect it to really happen, the sad surprises are there's GP Comprehension ( I mean I know it beforehand, but still saddening) and the fact that I lost a present, I'm so sorry ):

So the day started out with Matthew singing and playing the guitar for me, thanks B1, it's already very sweet of you and it's awesome (: Then subsequently people wishing me Happy Birthday / giving presents. The first period was GP, it went alright I guess, don't expect much anyway. When I was about to have my PW lesson, I recieved a call for ''Guardian Angel'' (or if you want to be called the Dark Knight / Jordan from 0836). I mean it was really shocking but I know it was a prank, it's super lameeeeee xD Still thanks for the entertainment, whoever you are! Then I got back my EoM, I didn't expect myself to do well since I rushed it out through a sleepless night. However, I did well, I don't need to re-do xD SUPERR HAPPY!

After school, I had a birthday cake from the class, thanks darling Wanshu for going out of the school to buy for me & I love my class! After that, I recieved a phone call from Peipei and she said, '' Do you want to open the gate for us?'' I was totally shocked, Peipei and Celeste came from AJC just to give me a cake and elmo balloon! Thanks Sweethearts!! We had a mini celebration and talked our hearts out. Peiling had a mini catch up with her OG mates too! After watching the Netball match, Peiling, YingChen and I had a crazy gathering at the C&C, guess some of the councillors were totally amused by us. FUN FUN FUN! St.nicks is the bomb!

I stayed on for night study and had cup noodles for dinner xD so fun! But I was too tired for any studying so I went home soon after I read 3/4 pages of Vectors. Thanks EP for helping me carry my stuff (: Oh I realise his friend loves photography uh. Then I was clumsy when I put all the presents into the car, I ''threw'' everything in but I forgot about my balloon I'm holding - it's still outside the car, I was about to close the door when my mom reminded me, it was a total embarrassment x( But this day was the most beautiful day this year (:

The next few days were alright, still fun xD Life's rather good now, & I love studying xD

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Now my house had this new thing which produces bright images, alittle too bright for me (I haven't been watching it, you see) and it's alittle too big for my eyes -.- And that's the 42" LG LCD teevee, I think.
Rather useless to me, since I've kinda lost interest in teevee, I don't have a deprived childhood though, I used to love watching the programmes that my parents would complain and forbid me to watch. But nowww..... I'm not in control of the teevee so I've lost interest in it.

I watched Mummy with Yannie today. Eugene should be the Mummy and not the Batman, logical right (for those who know about it)? It was funny, someone just can't stop laughing at the random moments, laughing at the stupidity though. Well, was alright alright I should say, it kinda lack alittle content and thrill. Wanted to meet up with pei but I had to revise for Econs cause I'vea new stupid Econs tuition tmr at Ms tuition teacher's house : Total Sianzxzxzx-ness. & I still don't feel like revising. On a lighter not, who wants Econs tuition? it's $40/hour, I think she lives around Yio Chu Kang area.

Suddenly I feel that there's nothing to look forward to, & so life seems so mundane. BAH GAHHH ): I need something / someone to motivate me to study, to love school. Eye Candy maybe, haven't had an eye candy. Maybe I don't like candies.

P.S 1308~
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If one day I lost my memory and I can't remember you. What will you do to help me recover my memory?

-Response;
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I'm a weird person.
I've weird sleeping patterns, I sleep whenever and where ever I like.... I suppose xD
I can reply message in a minute yet an hour is possible cause I type a word/few minutes.
I can even reply message half asleep if I want xD
I can laugh suddenly out of nowhere at the slightest thing.
Sze ting says I've funny reaction when I get tickled.
I do selective hearing, I may be looking at you but that doesnt mean I'm listening xD
I can stone for hours maybe even days.
Say I'm weird.

/I just woke up.
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Just the sudden urge to blog.
I have a friend called It. It is a very nice and fun loving person. We used to message alot and going out with It never fails to make me laugh make me smile. We love to do the silliest things and talk the crappiest stuff under the sun. I know I love It alot alot and It is irreplaceable.
But I was wronged, It is irreplaceable but I'm replaceable.

Everytime I read / view It's friendster profile or messages, I will tear in disappointment and anger. Why did It break the trust we used to have? I took a long time to overcome my weakness and thought I've given up on It. I was wrong again. When I said irreplaceable, I really mean it. Everytime I come across It blog, my attitude will be different, first I'll be disappointed, then I'll be angry, but now when I read, I'm affected but it's because reading It's posts at times make me feel the same way. I won't blame It anymore because It is still part of my beautiful memories.

(: I'm happy that I've known you. Now that you've taken another new path in life, working towards your dream, I hereby wish you all the best. Loves;
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2nd August 2008

Stupid Dog, don't come scratch me for no reason lah.
本小姐 isn't feeling well today ):<

Stupid Brother, why didn't you make sure it enters the cage?! You know the dog isn't disciplined at all (look who's the owner), it goes mad and start running everywhile playing with all the things. So many times alrdy, first, it scratched me cause I need to protect the pillow, next attack the dining table when we are having dinner (my mom scream the hell out, and I got to protect my food) now scratched me when I'm sick, not mentioning the number of times the dog had turn the house upside down when I'm not home because you didn't lock the cage properly.

URGH!
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AUGUST 2, SATURDAY

Studied with Yannie yesterday till 9pm! It was so-super-duper-ultra-uber fun. Though I wasn't feeling very well in the afternoon cuase of the super terrible weather. But maybe cause I had a very mild fever in the evening that got me highhh above the sky (: I was making fun of Yannie and Evil Twin and You Yu (: Oh I drew a happy face on Yannie's, Yannie's friend's & my own nails with liquid paper xD Maybe I'll love Friday Night Study Sessions!!

This week has beeeeeeeen oh-so-cooool & funnnnnnnn, kinda.

I don't want to be sick ):

P.S 13.08;
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