MYE is finally over for goodness sake. Super badly done, I admit.
Thanks to Clement, I think I know why I studied relatively enough yet seems like I totally didn't study, it's because I didn't study smart and I totally didn't practice which is actually very bad.
Ohwells, I definitely need to buck up for EOYS. JC totally sucks to the core lah.

& I hadn't been feeling well. Monday I took panadol before I went for exams, just so I can go through the exams without headache. I was seriously feeling horribly sick ): Thanks Eugene for buying porridge, or is it rice in soup for me. Okay whatever, but he went to buy for me and brought panadol for me. & thanks to Yannie for explaining eveerything to me during the long mornings we spent everyday. I know you almost died, I'm sorry ><
Thanks to Clement for comforting me the past few days.
Thanks to AMS for sending me to the bus stop the past few days, and buying tissue for me for no reason.
Thanks to everyone who gave me support when I was really...... uhhemmmmm.

All my papers were in the afternoon, but we will reach school at normal school hours just because we were lazy to take public transport, HAHA! Then we are the only 2 people who will stand randomly on the parade square for assembly, damn funny!

I don't know why, I've been having headaches and weird mood. Am i dying? I feel like I just had a heart attack in my nap just now ):
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Okay just got home from Fathers' Day Family Dinner at some urm OCBC building(?), Level 33. It's a rather nice restaurant, but I hate the lift due to the pressure.

Food is rather nice and awesome, but damn slow lah. I waited for an hour for it to start. No pictures, too hungry for that. & it's not very filling, haha. Saw some helicopter flying past as urm National Day rehearsal. oh the other table saw the fireworks, I was too lazy to walk over. (:

Clarke Quay's night view is pretty, but smelly (smoking)
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I feel like swimming in the river.
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haha, okay I spent the whole day watching HANA KIMI, awesome awesome(:

Oguri Shun is the bomb (:

off to study, don't sleeeeeeeeeeep, go go go! (:

no, actually I'm off for a nap.

I don't know if what I'm going to do is right, I'm sorry.
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TUESDAY 17.06.2008
Okay, I'm finally settled with a skin, not very much to my liking, but I'm just too sick & tired to be bothered with it for now. After all, there's something more important than this - stupid MYE!

I'm going to study Chemistry now. Before that, let me rant alittle bit.

I don't understand why my parents will say,'Tell us when you think you need help for your subjects..blah blah blah...'' & so I did, I said I needed help for Economics rather desperately. i even told them the tuition centre which Benjamin introduced (he said it's pretty good). Their response was practically doubt. I get crap like, ''We'll find you a tuition teacher....'' Oh, my dad told me to show him my work for Economics, and he started rattling about it's all about theory and application, implication, blah blah blah. & he said reading up on how other people write and answer will help. Hello, I know all these, you know. If it was this easy, I won't need help right?
Why won't they just try that tuition centre? Whatever, I don't know what crap is running through your minds? This is plain stupidity & childishness. I'm sorry, but I really just don't understand.

& to Eugene, thanks for making sure I woke up by 7 plus. But I apologise, I seriously didn't sleep well last night and so after awhile, I went back to sleep. Okay, I'm just giving excuses. In any case, thanks alot (:

So, now I'm back to studying, bye!
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jeremy says:
jiajia liang cha
'crazy says:
I don't sell tea at night lah.
jeremy says:
then you sell lighter?
jeremy says:
in winter you sell matchsticks?
'crazy says:
im not that little matchstick girl.
'crazy says:
even so, will you buy one from me?
jeremy says:
sure man!
jeremy says:
thats what best are for
jeremy says:
i buy from you 1 stick 100bucks! i sign you cheque okay?
jeremy says:
can accept?
'crazy says:
: O
'crazy says:
littlematchstick girl doesn't have education yo -.-
'crazy says:
i probably eat the paper up and hopeing it comes out from my mouth
jeremy says:
lolol! nevermind i give you instruction!
jeremy says:
i teach you how to bank the cheque!
'crazy says:
HAHA okay (:

just say I've got a oh-so-sweeeeet Best there (:
study plans up soooon yea, love you,
3 years and still counting' xoxo

on a lighter note, I'm off for a nap. hands getting sniff and head's spinning ):
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I believe, I'll be changing this skin again, I just can't find a suitable one ):
bear with me, I'm sorry.

oh oh, my brother's friend tempted me to watch Narnia Movie One.
Not exactly, but he said I've got to return him the VCD by today,
so I've to watch it.

means studying dragged till later & ..... (:
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Okay, it's 12.11pm & I really should start mugging and today I must fall in love with it, I must say 'I can't live without you, my books & notes!' (: Wish me luck on that.

On a lighter note, Clement (yes you again) has influenced me to get those assessment books like right now! Can't wait can't wait! Isn't that just oh-so-awesome? But I'll probably be killed by those CHALLENGING DRILLED questions from TOP JCs.

Just remembered how you helped me alot during O's period, I will always every now and then call you, bug you, scream at you for help. & that definitely helped me alot. Thanks alot yea? (: & do you mind if I start that habit again? Just can't deny how you fascinate me with your brilliant mind solving the math questions. Okay maybe I'm easily amused, I'm not from HCJC / RJC / top 5 JC, you see.

Have been blog hopping alot recently. Read alot of people's happy posts. Well, I'm happy for them & glad that they are alright. But why do I feel alittle empty myself? I don't know.

It's okay It's alright, I'll be just fine.
I hope, I hope
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Yes today is the 13 June 2008, Friday. Named the Black Friday, so anything bad happened?
I don't know.

This morning I went to St.Nicholas to collect my Student Graduation Certificate, yes it's oh-so-prettaye. & my mom read aloud the whole chunk of testimonial to my dad. When she read to ''She is keen to learn new things'', she paused and continue with,'' OBJECTION!'' and I practically rolled my eyes, what's there to object? Isn't SGC suppose to make things pretty pretty for us? Not like they are suppose to put, '' she is not exactly very keen in learning new things''. We should spare the teachers / students from cracking their brains too hard just to come up with some stuff to lengthen the whole testimonial thing.

Next up, I went to study with Clement at Ang Mo Kio Library in the afternoon. I apologised if I was rather distracted. I wasn't exactly very productive but hey, Clement taught my APGP, relatively funnnn yknow (: thanks Clement, stupid Lemonhead (: Sorry for bugging you either on ''ARE WE REALLY EATING BK (:'' or ''IS IT DINNER ALREADY(:'' hehee, i was dying to meet my dearest new hot boyfriend- BK! -okay whatever.

We then headed down to Popular to get Clement's stuff (though he went before coming to meet me), this shows how stupid he is!! Oh then we did some catching up, and reminisce the memories we had, be it craziest or happiest or saddest moments (: Great time, yes!

Then we headed down to Church for Dao Gao Hui, only the both of us went, hmmmmm! & Stupid Clement spammed me with his sms just because he has unlimited sms, not like i don't have right?!
total spent on mini lunch at Galilee: Chicken Chunks and Chocolate Spin, $7.70
total spent on Dinner at BK: Mushroom Swiss Meal, $6.55
TOTAL: $14.25.

I almost got knocked down at the pedestrian! I was apparently not letting her move off first but I was just making sure she stopped before I crossed. She actually accelerated when I started to walk, oh gosh, lucky she stopped. As I was crossing over the Bridge to wait for my dad for pick up, I saw this green fat big snake near the pathway (on the green patch of grass, YCK Mrt).. Alot of people were surrounding it and it just stared back like a dumb dumb. I didn't bother staying to look at it, after all it happened at my house before, nothing big. oh 2 police cars arrived, and policemen to the rescue!! (:

ta-ta, I'm tired! Is it really Black Friday or just my luck?
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My brain waves is mostly Alpha waves now which in turn means whatever I've studied goes in and comes out, so nothing exactly stays inside my jelly -bean brain.
and at 12am it's not morning it's MID-NIGHT, so I should be asleep.

To be a good girl, I need to be in bed at 9pm supposedly and have 7.5 hours of sleep.

Thanks Benjamin for that & not forgetting Chemistry tutoring online (:

This is the last post for Thursday, 12 June 2008!

P.S Tomorrow's the start of my war, wish me luck.
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Do i deserve it since I was the one asking for it?
I thought I could get over it again

Why am I still asking for more when it has all ended long before it has started.
No, we're not childhood friends.
No, we're not best friends / good friends / BFF or anything else you can think.
We're.... merely passer-bys.

You came crashing down into my world without my permission,
You came running down, pulling me away from my little world,
You came pouring laughters joy and surprises into my little life,
Yet you left without a word.

From afar, I screamed, I cried, I broke down, but you never turn back.

You said it's not fair to you cause.....
But it's not fair to me either.
No you don't understand, like I said, YOU WON'T

You hoped she is fine,
I hope you're fine,
who comes hoping I am fine?

I don't know, let it be, let it be, I say.
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I'm rather productive today, not referring to studying of course, but packing my room (:
It's relatively neat, not very neat but neat for me and 'conducive' for me to study. Oh, I packed my files too! - Learnt from Sharon. 3 cheers for me!

I've got to learn to be consistent now,
and and love studying as if studying is part of my life! (:

as a reward for myself, I'm gonna eat grapes!
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OMG, I seriously suck ):

I couldn't sleep / sleep well, thus I couldn't wake up in time, and everything is gone case.
Why don't I understand that I need to study badly now ):
Yesterday I finially pushed myself to visit litespeed, and I was stunned--

I've got so many papers to download and print and DO.

someone please slap me.
I'm going to mug I'm going to mug I'm going to mug. I've said it thrice and I'm seriously going to mug!

No Internet, No Handphone, only notes and papers during this period of mugging!
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First time in my history, I'm spamming my blog with posts.

Today is way too un-productiveeeee ):
I believe tomorrow will be a better day.
& still a little unbelievable that I'm turning in in 30 minutes time.
follow my plannnn yo (:

ta-ta, into a world of my own/
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I'm hungry, where's my dinner ):
Maybe I'm always stuck in my room so they didn't even bother to tell me they went out, or is the food already waiting for me downstairs before they left.
I don't know. BAH!

Seriously, I can't wait for Mid-years to end. I didn't have Mid-years for 4 years already ):
This is horrible terrible vegetable!

I don't know if this is right from the very start.
Everything seems to be in a whirl.
This is too confusing.
I want this, I want this not.

PS. MY FOOD IS HERE & I'm done with it.
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I'm back into the blogging mood. But sadly, I don't know what to blog.
I'm not very productive today, but at least I've come up with my study plan for these few days.
That's one thing, the other thing depends whether I'm productive / whether I follow it.
haha, better remind myself of the consequences constantly. I guess that's the only motivation for me to study.

Now, I'm waiting for dinner while doing my Economics Notes. Didn't manage to follow my schedule today due to over-strain of my brain. Oops, I know that's an excuse ):

And I change my blogskin AGAIN because the previous' font was too puny and too difficult to read, I'm sure this is better and simpler. hurhur, I like this blogskin, but don't know how long this will last (:

& I'm still lazy to upload the M'sia trip's photos. teehees.

Always say, once a pig, always a pig (:
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So in the end I still went to help out in the Youth Hour Camp. Though didn't manage to know more about the youth hour people but at least did some catching up with the fellowship people (: all in all, it's fun lah.

I really think I've post-camp syndrome. Or am I plain pms-ing? Both play a part I guess. Okay, whatever.

I better really get back and really start studying if not I'll be dead soon. So the next 1 week plus will be sad and boring.


mixed emotions sucks.
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I hoping for more when there's nothing to start with.
I realised this can never be a habit.
And I don't wish to get used to this either.
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Friday: Kung Fu Panda-ed and 日本村-ed with Yannie and ESP. amusing for them, irritating for me, and you should know why ): great family day though we were clueless of what we should do after the movie, before early dinner. <3

How's my weekend? Relatively interesting I guess.
Saturday: I went for this combined 区会's one day tour in M'sia. We went to the ostrich farm, museum, fruit farm and we went to see fireflies!!!! (:
-photos will be up sooooon, I hope. You see, I'm too lazy to do it.

Sunday: I had Baptism. Congratulations to me (: It's not the end, but just a brand new start, brand new experience to begin with. Then I headed to help out with the Youth Hour Camp. I don't want to comment on anything, just that I think I was rather carried away with the Trustfall, apologize.

Monday [in advance] : PW meeting with Mr Muscle. Then head down to the Camp again and to stay over (: But after that, I'll be mugging intensively, I don't want to let myself and my parents down of course.
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Guess we were never really on the same page.
Don't tell me I'm thinking too much.
I hope I'm wrong too.
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to someone (I hope you know who you are) :

I don't know if you will be reading my blog today, just thought it'll be better to tell it to you here. Maybe I'm really relatively weird these days, be it hot-tempered or rather cold(?) towards you. Maybe I'm getting used to you giving in to me always, I know I'm such a horrible person. And no, please don't tell me it's alright, because it isn't.

Whether I'm having problems anot, I'm alright now. I told you I'm be strong and I'll keep that promise of mine. You always ask me to be honest, and here it is, you're awesome, and thank you. I mean it everytime I said this to you. I shall not list everything, you know it.

I know you're getting really very busy lately, and I shouldn't be giving you extra trouble, guess you're tired of even bothering with my crap. Well, do take care of yourself yea.
<3

No, it's not you, it's me, I'm sorry
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Alright, I'm back again. Staying at home whole day = SICK! Apparently I really can't study at home (yes some of you may say it's just the mentality). But whatever it is, I didn't manage to study today. Great, isn't it? All in all, I think my revision plan is rather screwed now. Better stop pigging out so much!! STUDY STUDY STUDY! Someone please remind me ): Last time I've Dino to constantly bug me to study, now I'm all on my own ): Not really, but near there.

update on yesterday, 04 June 2008
Well, it was suppose to be Family Studying Day, but apparently Yannie can't make it so it ended up with only me and ESP. I reached school at about 1230. ESP still has meeting going on till about 1 plus. Then he headed off to eat with his friends. And I got to wait for him to return. Not that it's bad, at least Ican study in peace. it's like dejavu for me, cause the exact same thing happened as the first time I studied with him!!! Not just this, he went AMK to eat (same as the previous time). oh he was nice to ask me if I want anything but apparently I just had lunch so yea I said it's alright. In the end he came back with Green Tea McFlurry = weird. Well, he didn't study at all !! just plain chilling out and talking. Then he suddenly pop out with, ''I don't want to study already!'' So i casually replied,'' Then what? Watch movie ah?'' Then, he was like okay okay! ha, SAME SCENERIO AS THE PREVIOUS!

Then we headed down to The Cathay. At this point of time when we were walking, I was looking as where i was walking so I almost knocked into someone, and I kind of made a rather awful sound and the person freaked out ): We watched Narnia. Alright he handed me the tickets. As the movie starts at 410, so we walked around for a while. Then he went to buy Lovers Combo for himself, HE LOVES HIMSELF TOO TOO MUCH. I got sick, urgh, every where's panda PANDA and MORE PANDA's poster. The Ultimate: A PANDA DISPLAY TOY AT THE CATHAY ): Then we quickly headed to the theatre. Apparently the lady said, '' The 2nd theatre down..'' We took it as 2nd theatre instead. It's still Narnia. So we went in and realised someone took our seats, and it started already, I thought it should be advertisment time. So we just sat anywhere. We watched and watched and watched... For this particular scene, when the lion attacked the soldier to rescue Lucy(? can't remember her name), I thought the lion ate up the soldier and I went, ''YUM YUM!'' Guess I was loud ): The people next to us turn and looked at ESP, I hid behind him, SUPER HILARIOUS!

50minutes was gone and then I said, '' How come for the past 50 minutes it's all like happy ending kind of thing, haha, first time watched a 50minute movie!'' ---> I was practically just joking you know, I didn't expect to be real ): You get what I mean. We cou;d actually laughed at the 2 people who ran off in the middle of the show awhile ago >< Then we decided to head back to the right theatre- THEATRE 3 to continue, we watched all over again. HA super funny. Dejavu No.2!

Conclusion made by ESP: Next time I'm not going to hand you the tickets ever again. ):

TOMORROW: kungfu panda URGH!!! ):
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yes, I'm finally back here updating this blog. I'm not dead, don't worry. If you don't know (guess you don't), I'm actually using my laptop in the dark. It's quite fun actually. I don't know why, I just can't sleep so I'm here entertaining myself.

Well, studying seems to be a must now, obliged to study if not I'll be dead really soon. I mean my CT called my parents, and thank God my mom didn't scream at me for my horrible results. Thus, i need to study hard, I can't let them down. YES YIJIA, GO GO GO! (:

Well, as for OSLE, I got in and I'll be heading off to Yunnan at the end of this year for 2 weeks and 3 days maybe. God bless me. As for CCA, I think I'm quitting and changing to something else. I've been neglecting guitar so much that I'm lagging behind, and my presence is negligible I think. Ah wells, not much comments on this, just hope I'll be able to go for lessons and catch up with the rest.

Life's been rather mundane. Somehow sleeping late is out of my league and SLEEPING EARLY LIKE AT 9PM has become part of my life. Interesting and I don't know why. Guess it isn't bad lah. And hey, I'm sleeping earlier than Benjamin, hee (: Quite proud of myself, lol.

Last week, one of the days, sitting down with AMS and Weiwei and Friend. Super funny I tell you. I was bored and then AMS started disturbing me, and as expected he changed my Display Note to ..... I LOVE EUGENE PETER! He wanted to take a photo of that but the words were too small so I've decided to change it to : I LOVE EUGENE PETER! <3 xoxo. and I MMS-ed him the picture of it and he seemed touched and rather entertained. LOL. Then AMS flirt with him using my phone and the content is rather R21, HA. apparently a small part AMS typed '' I dream of you...'' and I really dreamt of him that very night. thanks ah AMS! urgh

On Sat I studied with Yannie and we finally had time to catch up with each other. Then we headed down to AMK hub to eat and eat and eat. It was great <3 I realised I've been eating alot, urgh ):

Yesterday, Monday that is, I had Sciesta and if you don't know, I was the emcee. Lucky for me, the various Secondary students were relatively cooperative and responsive. HA, I DIDN'T SCREW UP BEING AN EMCEE, 3 CHEERS FOR ME (: well, I had fun and got to know more of the members of Science Society Club. People like Big and Small Reindeer, Celery, Mr Cool, Mr Speed, Broccoli, Mushroom etc. Yes I've named them all. I realised I love to name the people I know, hee it's just so fun (: much love! oh crap, forgot to take pictures with them ): oh oh, they gave me new names like tomato and watermelon, thanks ah people ):

As for today, I studied at Ang Mo Kio Library with Eugene (not EUGENE PETER) and Vinnie. It's just plain crap. Both of them didn't know each other yet they gang up to bully me!!!! Apparently we shared table with this lady, and they claimed I've scared her away and then I asked Eugene why is he hugging his things. Guess what. Vinnie said, '' cause Amy is sitting next to him!'' (of course there's no one next to him). urgh! Oh then I was telling Vinnie about what happen online with my friend. And the way Eugene wanted to eavesdrop is seriously hilarious! Then we had lunch together. Vinnie left at 2 plus for competition and her friend from HCJC came to join us. Yes, he made fun of me too, urgh so many horrible people around me. Then Eugene and I started texting each other though we were at the same table.

Me: wah the weather very good hor? (:
*Eugene stares and gave me the 'lame' look and I just giggled away. Then I got so sick of physics, I started to feel sleepy.
Eugene: Yawn yawn yawn... sleepy?
*I gave a blank stare.
*The rest shall not be revealed, too bad.

Then we started communicating through writing, actually only Eugene was writing, I was reading and replying verbally. He seriously waste paper like flowing tap. tsktsk, horrible alien! and then he commented : No, i'm going to recycle it...... by feeding the panda. THANKS AH, STUPID ALIEN. I then suddenly wrote mirror imaged words and he turned the book 360 degrees trying to figure out how to read it, and I couldn't resist but to flip the page for him and start laughing off my head (: I guess he got amused and tried doing so too, but apparently failed at times. Such an entertainment by the way he was trying to do it (: Then we started our silly crap again. We were snatching the book we were using to communicate, he tried to trick me but wanting to pull the book away when I wanted to write on it (FAILED), take a photo of me (FAILED), HAHA! great fun definitely. Oh I tried to test him on his engineering thing cause his test is tmr, and apparently it didn't work out cause I asked stupid questions like why this drawing has that line drawn in the circuit. He gave me the '' you are hopeless'' look. And I went, ''It's suppose to be like that ah?'' And he nodded. HAHAHA! sorry lah. We laughed alot alot and hopefully we didn't disturb anyone >< [blogspot has problem, I can't remember what did I type after this ):] okay so we did silly things and it's damn crap! Then he was hungry so I asked him to head down to Galilee Cafe to grab a bite while I packed my stuff. By the time i went down, I was rather shocked to see him ordered Brownie for me as a treat (for entertaining him, but i didn't, he did self entertainment). In any case, thanks yea (: We had a short chat before heading home (: Movie soon!! hee.

On a lighter note, I realised I was rather forgetful lately. Within 2 weeks, I've forgotten to bring my wallet out twice and my handphone once. HMMM!

THE END FOR THIS POST (:
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